Number One Is Mine

Extra : Kind Hearted Man Is Cruel And Coward

Saito Pov

The first time Subaru step in our mansion i was captivated by his glare and lonely broken eyes. The moment he becomes my little brother i swear to protect and love him wholeheartedly.

I became obsessed with Subaru when he smile brightly with his friends Fukuro. Jealousy creep inside my hearts when the one he relied the most is not his family but his friends Fukuro and Kai..

I want him to myself but i afraid that he will be disgust with my love. So i backed away and watch by the sidelines of his happy day with his beloved friends.

As he grows up he becomes more sexy and tantalizing. He became more distant with his family and his relationship with his friends is more tighter compare when they were little.

The dirty love that i imprisoned inside my hearts is trying to escape. I don't want to hurt him and i don't want him to hate me. So i search for comfort at some random bar. That place is loud with people in ecstasy with their own partners and i choose to sit at the booth far away from the dance floors. My eyes catches a glimpse of Subaru figures but when i blinked back its turns to completely another person. The way he sit and stare straight with indifferent eyes is the same with Subaru.

Maybe with this person i able to forget about Subaru..

"Do you have time?"

I approached him first and he was shock by my sudden presence and his indifferent eyes glittering with excitement gaze. He seem happy with my presence so i waste no time and leads him to some hotel to find relief with him caressing my body. He was skilled and my mind long gone and left my body each time he thrust his hard rod inside my wanting hole. We meet again a few time for some fucking and each time he didn't disappoint me. He treats me with love and care and i slowly falls for him but when i know he was the same ages as Subaru i become afraid and my fears comes back hunting me.

"Please don't leave me! I'll do anything you asked me to do but please don't break up with me!! I love you.."

He cries with desperate voices and i can bring myself to leave him likes this.

" Don't cry...i stay so stop crying Lucas.."

He smile happily and hugs me tightly not wanting to lose me again. My hearts skipped a bit but my love to Subaru never dies.

"I love you Saito.."

He caress my cheeks gently and i smile with his gentle touch.

"I love you too.."

I pull him into a sweet gentle kiss and he hum satisfyingly.

Lucas existence become more important than Subaru and its scared me. I scared of falling in love with other person aside from Subaru.

I don't want to hurt Lucas so i break up with him and again he beg for me to stay but my decision is final. So i ignored his plead and leave him broken hearted. It's pain for me to leave him but i can't love him completely when my heart is still with Subaru.

I never thought that i meet again with Lucas near Subaru and what makes me more anxious is that he claiming Subaru to be his and my love become hatred when he spoke sexually about Subaru.

"Good evening.."

Fukuro greets us and my mother seem happy with Fukuro presence since he love good looking guy and my father love spending time with Fukuro. He's polite and bright to boot.

"What's bring you here son?"

"I'm here to fetch some of Subaru school thing and his clothes since he will be staying with me for awhile..I'm sorry its sudden but i can't tell about this. But rest assured Subaru will be staying with me at my mansion so if you want to see him be free to come and visit there."

My parents agreed with it but i not liking the idea of Subaru staying away from me especially with Fukuro.

"Is Subaru with you?"

Fukuro is still packing Subaru things and he nods by my question.

"He's inside the car but please don't pressure him with heavy question please.."

The way he talks anger me. Who did he thinks he is? Subaru is my little brother! I can asked him any questions he don't need to warn me about boundaries..

I heads outside and rush to the black BMW. Subaru was sleeping and he jolt up when the car door been open. I roughly pulls him out from the car. He was panicking and try to escape from my hand. I ignore the pain from his scratching my hands and dragged him to the backyard.

"What is your problem?"

He yelled angrily at me and i smack his cheeks with my hands. His faces snaps to the right and he glare up to me with anger eyes.

"Are you in relationship with Fukuro? Why you want to move out from our family house to Fukuro mansion? Did you blinded with love Subaru? Are we not enough for you?"

I vent my frustration towards him but he didn't back down with my yelling and anger tones. He punch my faces until i fall back to my butt.

"I'm not your property big brother..this family is never mine..I'm an outsider that was abandoned by his own blood family..how can i stay here with the fact that this family is just a facade of happy family..it's makes me miserable and suffocate inside this house.."

I was shock ..is that what he really feel about us?

"We really love you Subaru..i love you..how could you said that.."

"If you really love me then let me go.."

He walks away while i stunned there shocked by his words.

"You know about my feelings Subaru?"

He turns to faces me and his eyes stare blankly at me.

"I'm not that stupid big brother..your relationship with Lucas and the reason you broke up with him...all because you have feelings at me.."

He know about my feelings towards him..no..no..

"Yes i do love you but not that kind of love Subaru.."

He pulls up my collar shirts and glare at me.

"This is why i never falls for you..you seek for another comforted when you unable to state your feeling to me and what worse you run away from Lucas when he falls for you..afraid to be abandoned by him you left him first i'm i right big brother?"

I shiver in fear and embarrassment..how did he know about all of it?

"You a kind big brother that willing to do anything for me but you also a cruel person that can throw away the person that in love with you without any problems..and you also a coward that hides his feelings from me..."

He let me go and head to the black car that waiting for him. Fukuro open the door and bows down to me. They left the mansion and i watch the black car slowly disappear from my sight.

If the person you in love with is Fukuro then i got nothing to say because he's a perfect guy with good personality.. I was a coward and i lost my chances to makes him mine. Its the same with Lucas because he's already in love with Subaru..and again i lost my chances to own my love since i cowardly runs away.

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With a broken heart i travel around with a group of orchestra.

"Is that you Saito? Its me Kyle.."

My brow frown at the unfamiliar foreigner that hugging me and when he kiss me passionately i immediately remember back the carefree guy that always sexually harassing me when i in the music college.

"What are you doing here Kyle?"

I push him away and wipes my lips.

"I'm joining the group since they need more violinist.."

And that the beginning of my suffering lives but his presence cheer my broken heart a bit.