Gone

Part 8

"Oh, i know about her, she was my neighboor for almost 5 or 6 months and then, when SHIELD compromised and all that fiasco she happened to be one of the agents of SHIELD in order to look after me and then she was the one who brought my shield and Sam's fly suit back in Germany"

Steve explained everything about her to Bucky, but he realized that he missed about one thing

"Oh, and i almost forgot that she is Peggy's niece"

And with that Bucky eyes widened, and that made Steve huge grin slowly diasappear

"Wait, what?!" Bucky said with high and shock tone

"She is Peggy Carter's niece?!"

"Uhhh, yeah, what's wrong?"

Steve really didn't know what happened to his bestfriend, why did he act so strange lately?

"Oh my god!! You're really messed up!! Do you realized that?!"

"I kinda don't understand what are you saying?"

"Dammit, Steve, what were you thinking that day back in Germany?! Back when you kissed her?!"

"Do you even realize when you kissed her that she is her niece?"

"Uhh yeah, what's wrong with that?"

Bucky automatically slapped his forehead, "after been asleep for 70 years, you're still stupid"

"can you imagine if Peggy suddenly lived again and found out about this, she would kick your ass you know that"

" c'mon, Buck, there is no way she'll live again, i mean, she's dead"

Steve said with sad smile

" okay,okay, i didn't mean to make you sad, i just think that you guys don't have any chemistry,okay?"

Steve raised his eyebrow and about to speak, but Bucky stop him

"no, pal, just don't talk something,okay?"

"you know what?, just let's straight to the point"

"what i mean is , every time i saw you, either when i was in Winter Soldier mode or something like that, i saw her  always beside you"

He stopped for a few seconds to let him know that this was a really serious talk

"Always"

Steve realised that Bucky was referring to Natasha

"She always watch your back,she always help you,even though she was in Stark team that day, do you even remember that?"

Steve got quiet, his freind words made him realized that he had left Natasha

He even didn't say thank you to her, because he was too busy with Sharon

He now realized that why Nat acted like this these days because she was lonely, and Steve knew the one who always spent most of her time was him

He felt really, really, guilty, for left her, for not saying thank you, and most of all, not being a good freind

And with that, he became quiet, thinking, what happened to him that made leaving Nat like that?

"Steve? Steve? You there?"

He quickly snapped from his thoughts and quickly asked some questions

"Uhh,yeah, i'm here, i just....didn't realise that i kinda leave her"

Bucky knew that he made perfect sentence to Steve

"Wait, how do you know about this?" Steve asked

Bucky took a deep breath and let it out slowly

"You know that me and Natasha usually talked to each other, right?"

Steve nodded, because it was too obvious, when he walked into the kitchen to grab some water, he saw both of them talking, laughing, and enjoyed each other presence

"There was a time that she said, she missed talking to you"

"She said, i really want to talking with Steve like the old time, but i kinda think that he doesn't want to, i remember she said that"

Steve felt more broken when Buck said that, he really disappointed with himself

He now realized how much he meant to Natasha

"Why would you do that?"