its a secret // joeck

chp 5

joes pov

joe sat at his usual spot in the freshly cut grass, secretly smiling as he stalked jack maynard playing football. wednesdays were his favourite days, just for the very reason that football training was always on during lunch. god bless football training. of course he didn't make it obvious that he was watching them. he had a book out in front of him and was "doing his homework", aka just doodling. he tried to get caspar and josh to sit out with him so it would look less suspicious, but they just thought it was weird. fair enough.

he crossed his legs and finished his drawing of a very pretty boy in his sketchpad copy, whilst simultaneously peeking over at the pretty boys, with sweat gleaming on their forehead and showing off their trick shots and skin. but in reality, joe only had his eyes on jack.

jack. with his nose ring and flowing hair, and his leg muscles and his eyes! his fucking eyes. what the fuck. joe honestly just admired him, and the only time he'd talked to jack was through his stupid anonymous text messages. 

and then suddenly, jack was running over in this direction. jack maynard. joe gave him a quick glance, then looked back at his drawing. he felt his face flush red as he came up right beside him.

"sorry, i just need to get the ball." jack said, grabbing the ball beside joe.

they locked eyes for a split second

"no worries." joe said, his voice surprisingly stable.

jack stopped for a minute.

"hey, you're joe right?" he smiled.

joe liked his smile.

"hm? oh yeah, im joe. you're jack, right? im pretty sure i see you on this field a lot." joe said, getting louder now.

jack gave him a small smile.

"yeah, honestly i don't even like it that much, but my mum loves coming to the games."

"our mums are pretty similar then. my mum loves coming to my plays, but to be honest, drama is pretty scary in a way. not really my thing." joe replied, completely confident now.

"we cou-" jack started, but stopped when he was interrupted by a particularly rude person on the field.

"get your gay ass on the field, man! hurry the fuck up!" some asshole shouted, and not a hint of any sort of joking tone.

the mood shifted between jack and joe.

"i hope i see you around." jack said, in a sadder tone than before.

it really made him want to punch whoever that asshole was.

jacks pov

four new messages!

mranon223: hey you

mranon223: you ok?

mranon223: i miss you

mranon223: i know thats stupid we literally don't know each other.

mylove<3: i think im okay

mylove<3: our school sucks

mylove<3: can you just be like a diary or something? can i tell you about my day and                                                stuff?

mylove<3: and then you can write back 

mranon223: of course bb i'd love to hear about your day

mylove<3 changed your name to myfavdiary

mylove<3: okay well theres literally no one at this school in my class that cares for me at all. like  everyone is calling me gay and pushing me or punching me, and literally no body wants to be friends with me im so lonely lmao

mylove<3: i met one guy today. joe? idk if you know him. he had really nice eyes though. he was drawing and it was more honestly SO GOOD what the fuck i love it i want it i wish i was as talented smh.                        

myfavdiary: thats great !! you should definitely try to talk to him more at football training. im sorry about your idiotic class. idiots. i love u your so talented and whoever doesnt want to be your friend is an absolute idiot. i wish they didnt have this effect on you                      

mylove<3: you can be my friend?? please! tell me who you are??

myfavdiary: you know me!

myfavdiary: i cant tell you who i am yet. its just such a horrifying concept. because now this all feels stupid. if i had just talked to you in real life, it would have been SO much better oml.

mylove<3: whenever youre ready bb. i guess internet friends will have to do for now!

myfavdiary: you charmer you. talk to you tomorrow

myfavdiary logged off

mylove<3: i cant wait

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heyy honestly im probably going to make so many mistakes with like the computer names and theres probably going to be a few my's or i's but anyway oops lmao