catch a dream ; setosolace

day twenty four

to the boy with blue eyes,

i overreacted and i realize that now.

i hate you so much. it's to the point where i can't properly formulate words because of my everlasting hatred. you invaded my private space and you're probably judging me because of that. i hate it when people judge me for something i can't fix.

the voices won't stop screaming at me. i'm taking the pills because i want to get better, but my body isn't letting me. i ripped those family photos because they're gone. they're just gone from my life. those razor blades i don't want to explain, and those tissues are for my stupid snot that comes dribbling out of my nose when i cry. it's so fucking stupid how much i miss you.

i want to text you and i want to pick up the phone, but i'm trapped in this cycle of misery. you still won't leave me alone and it's almost been a week. i've barely ate anything and all i've been doing was, well, sleeping.

just fuck off, okay?

please, just leave me alone.

ugh,
- seto