The Player

Chapter 11

I look at her and realize that she's not from here. Nor will I ever compete with something like that. Tears start to form in my eyes. I run to my car and I start crying, I hear a tap on my window and look over and I see Shawn.

"Go away I don't want to talk to you" I say "Bailey please let me explain" he's asks. I get out of the car and I start yelling at him at the top of my lungs, "no Shawn you can't explain anything. Because every time you do I fall for the same shit. I actually thought you cared, and I thought you were actually going to take this seriously but obviously I was wrong, fuck all of this shit Shawn. You have a girlfriend but yet you come into my room and you do shit with me. How would she feel if she found out huh? How wou-" I get cut off by his lips locking on mine. "She's not my actual girlfriend, i want you." He explains. "Well too late for that Shawn. Because you just told me she was your girlfriend." I told him. I'm only stating facts.

"No no no she not my girlfriend but publicly she is, but I want it to be you I want to feel real and not some fake one. Look I know I can treat you better then any other guy here, let me show you. Look I get that I wasn't the guy you were looking to fall in love with, but at least act like you love me. I started writing songs about you. You're my inspiration." He says this as tears form in his eyes. "Shawn I- I- can't be a fool, I can't love you I'm sorry." I start crying. I look in his eye and I see nothing but hurt. I can't bare to look at him, I get in my car and I drive away.

I get home and I'm sitting in my driveway and I'm crying. Did he mean that stuff he said to me. Was he serious about the songs? Did I just let the one person who will can love me walk out of my life. I just sat there and cried what it seemed like forever. I finally get up and go inside. I lay down on the couch and I start crying because I start thinking about his smile.

It's around 7:30 at night and pouring outside and I heard a soft strumming of a guitar, and I hear this voice "and I'm not trying to ruin your happiness, but darling don't you know that I'm the only one for ya, do you think about me at all, and do you, do you feel the same way, and do ya remember how it felt, cause I do.."

I got outside to see Shawn strumming a guitar and singing, he sees me and stops and starts yelling "Look I know you don't want to hear from me but Bailey give me a chance to make you happy, let me prove to you that I can be the one for you. I get that I never gotten a chance to know you and I barely even know your name. The only reason I know it is because it's in your room. But please please give me a chance to make you happy. I wanna love you with the lights on."