You Will Never Know Why... [Completed✔️]

Do It

quick a/n: hey guys before you read this please note that this hole chapter is going to be a bid trigger warning Ex: Suicidal thoughts and actions, so please frens just to give you a heads up do not read and PM me if you need anything. Other than that, stay alive and stay safe frens.

Y/N's POV
Tyler isolates himself because of me? I thought letting my thoughts take over.
Why, why did he lie to me? How long has he been lying to me? What is and what isn't the truth? Why am I still here? Why aren't I dead? I mean Tyler must do something because of me.
Of corse he does, He. Hates. You.
You don't for sure know that
Y/N, I know anything and everything, okay. You can believe me.
But, after what Tyler said to Josh I don't know who to believe anymore.
Y/N, I am better than both of them. I am the person you can trust.
Okay
Now, you do know that nobody likes or loves you.
I guess I know now
Y/N face it you are just a waste of space and basically everything so why not just leave.
I cant do that
You're right, you're weak.
I know I am, tell me something I don't know.

Then, the voice stop talking, well, guess I know everything now.

I finally got into a woods, I found a lake and sat by it thinking about what the voice said. I mean yeah, I am worthless and everything but, does Tyler hate me? Am I a waste? Oh who am I kidding of corse I am.
You used to make me happy.
What do you mean?
Roll up your pant legs.

I did as told to reveal, cuts, pink lines, some new, some old, and to see words carved into my left leg saying,
"You will never know why I did this to myself..."
"What the fuck?" I mumbled
That's right, Y/N you were so close to leaving and yet so far, you are broken and thats all you'll ever be
I'm broken, and thats all I'll ever be?
Thats right, you always were and you always will be
I am broken, and thats all I'll ever be.
I'm broken, and thats all I'll ever be
I'm broken and thats all I'll ever be
Good girl, now you know what you have to do.
I have to end it, end it all
end it, and end it all
After all, I die when you die. So do it!
Do it.
Do it.
Do it.
Walk up the hill.
I walked up the hill to find on going traffic, I know what I need to do. I was about 40ft. away from the highway.
Y/N come on, this will be
much better for the world, and better for yourself.
I took one step close, and another, and another. I took enough steps to the point I was only a couple steps away from ending it all.
What are you waiting for Y/N we all have been waiting for this.
Yeah, yeah you all have.
I took another step, then another step, I was going to take my last step until,

"Y/N WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"

Tyler.
I turned around to see a worried Tyler.
Now I know I wasn't that far from his house. He came close to me.
"Tyler you come any close and I will take my last step." I threatened
"Y/N please." He said
"Tyler no, I am worthless." I said holding back tears.
"Y/N, who the hell told you that?" Tyler asked. I pointed to my head.
They did.
He walked closer as I took a little tiny step forward.
"Y/N no please." he begged
"It's to late Tyler, they have won, and we have lost." I said turning around.
"I know," Tyler breathed in.
"You know what Tyler." I said
"I know, what you did and I know who you are." He said
"No you don't." I faced him
"Y/N I can't bring back every single memory you made, but maybe we can forget the old ones, and welcome new ones." He said walking closer as I turned around.
"Tyler, I know what you think, and I care what you think." I said.
"I need you Y/N, and I I want you Y/N." Tyler said.
"You hate me Tyler admit it already." I breathed in.
"What?" he said in shock
"Tyler I know everything." I said
"No you don't, because if you knew everything, then you would know you dont want this." he said
"You dont know what I want and dont want." I said taking my last step before I got pulled back by a surprisingly strong arm.

I love you Y/N