You Will Never Know Why... [Completed✔️]

The Stars are fading

A/n I dont really know if you would call this a filler chapter or what but whatever be warned their are some triggers so please skip chapter if triggered and stay alive💚

Y/N's POV
     I woke up, I checked the clock to see
2:36am, appear on the clock.
Great. I think to myself as I get out of bed and decide to go out for a walk. I haven't been out for a 'Late Night Run' since I was maybe about 12 or 14, I don't exactly remember. I do remember always looking up at the sky and see barely any stars. My grandma would always tell me,
"The stars stand for everyone who has passed, I hope when I pass, I'll be the brightest star in the sky, to prove to the others I'm not a crazy old lady." God how much I miss her, always positive and says wise things. I looked up in the sky to see dim star lights.
"I would never be a star, Cause I'm slowly fading with them." I said out loud knowing no one can hear me. I sat down on the sidewalk staring at my Red converse.
"Why can't I just learn to be happy?" I asked myself.
Because you're too weird, sad, stupid, depressed, broken, oh did I mention depressed?
"Okay we get it, I'm useless." I told him.
Yes in fact indeed you are.
"They will never know why." I whispered.
Only me and you will know why.
"I don't even know why I want to." I shrugged.
Because, you wanna make the world happy, you wanna make Tyler, Josh, and Me happy.
"No, not tonight, not tomorrow, but someday." I said sighing
That's right, you will do it.
"But not today." I said getting up and marching back to Tyler's place.
Trying to get there I stopped at a place I used to visit when I was upset. I came here often I sat down on the freshly cut grass and sighed. Then the memories started to flow back.
           FLASHBACK/TRIGGER
I have had it, I'm done, I'm doing it. I'm sick of living and I want to die. He keeps telling me to so I am. I'm going to finish this letter and then leave. I wrote in the letter left it on the counter and walked out. I am so done with it all. Traffic or Lake? Traffic. I watched as the cars went 100 mph I took a step closer until I took my last step. or at least I thought.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" a stranger said.
"Leave me alone I'm trying to dye here." I said.
"No." The person said.
Then they hugged me.
"I wont let you."
"I dont know who you are what you've done and I dont care what religion, race, sexuality is I want to help." they said.
"My hole life sucks I'm so fed up." I claimed.
"Come here." They said walking me far away from the highways.
"Where do you live?" they asked.
"68 Southeast main street."
(A/N street name idefk.)
My dad lives on the same street. they said.
"Thats cool" I mumbled.
They walked me home and gave me their phone number.
I texted it the next week or so and then gave up.
                  End Of Flashback

I still remember the number.
259-806-2358
I wasnt going to call them of corse but you know 'safe keeping'

I soon got up and went back to Tyler's house. I wasn't doing it today, not without a goodbye at least.