Saving YOU (Synyster Gates lovestory)

Badass

All I could feel is pain.My head was pounding and there was a lot of noise I could hear but I think it was all in my head because when I finally got to open my eyes slowly,everything was dark but I could see a little light moonlite from outside provided and it creeped up through my windows and my open balcony.I tried to move but it was very hard . It's just then that I realised wow, I was in my room and someone very very big was laying down beside me.I slowly moved my body but the body next to me tensed and moved me closer.I vinced and it moved.
"Am I dreaming?" I said the stupidest thing ever when I have come to realization to who was laying right beside me, holding me.I really thought I was sleeping because this couldn't be happening.Not now not ever.
"You're not Angie.Are you okay?" He asked slowly he had such an amazingly hot sleepy voice that was deep and so so quitley comforting.
"Matt's gonna kill you." Was the only thing that I could say at that moment, I just blurted it out.
"No, he's sleeping." he said and layed flat on his back on my bed and threw his arm over his forhead sleepily.
I slowly got up and I was in pain and my eyesight was fucked up, and my head started to feel heavy.I slowly walked to the wall to turn my light on and tried to adjust to the lighting.I looked over to my bed where that maracilus man was laying totally calm.
He was wearing his jeans and no shirt.At all..
He had abs and a big giant chest that I have slept on, muscilar toned arms that hugged me and held me moments ago.His expression on his face changed when he noticed I was checking him out and small slight smirk was soon plastered on his face and then he closed his eyes.I had no pants, I just had black laced panties that I wore and a huge oversized black t shirt.
What the fuck.
Oh no.
The realization hit me so hard and I fell down on the floor with my knees up to my chest and my head in my hands.
"Oh, no what did I do?" I said whispering.I heard moving and footsteps coming closer to me.He sat down in front of me cross legged and took my arms and put them down.I looked at him disappointed in myself.
"I slept with you." I said to him watching his face remain completely calm.He sighed and then looked at me with those big insuring eyes.
"As much as I wish that statement was true, no, that didn't happen." He spoke quetly.It's like a huge weight fell off of my shoulders.I started thinking.If we didn't do anything how come he has no shirt and I have no pants, and we're in my bed and Matt is downstairs and I fell into his arms at that party.Where's Cher? I didn't overdose?
He slowly got up and turned the light off and picked me up holding my arms and walked me over to the balcony where was a cover plastered on the floor.He sat me down and then sat beside me.There was a pack of Marlboro red's sitting on the edge of the window and an ashtray with a huge amount of smoked cigarettes in it.I couldn't take my eyes off him, his expression the way his body moved, he was so calm and well, I had to admit myself I had a little crush on him but he was a lot older like fuck he just finished high school and I was a freshman.He lit a cigarette and offered me one from his pack.With my trembling fingers I took one and put it in my dry mouth and then he lit it while looking me right into my eyes.
I kind of hated that.
He didn't look he starred.
He put the cigarettes down.
I couldn't help but feel that tingle all over my body and especially in the areas I didn't wish it tingled.His skin touched mine,our arms and our bodies as we sat next to one another.I couldn't help but feel sudden closeness something warm on my heart but my thoughts were all cloudy.
I had a badass 21 year old beside me with a bad boy reputation, sexy good looking guy with his amazing voice and that spiky hair and that mystic look.I could look at him all day.
"Want me to tell you what happened?" He said in a low voice while realising some smoke through his nose.I nodded.
"Well first of all I can't think of any kind of explanation of why I did what I did, that is protected you but I think anyone would've done the same.You fell into my arms, I was scared you'd hit your head on the concrete but I was fast.I picked you up got you in my car.Cher said she's gonna call Matt tell him you were gonna spent the night suprisingly he was asleep so he just said you could.Then I sneaked us into your room, got you to bed undressed you and when I was about to leave I couldn't I just had this urge to hold you so I did." He finished putting out his cigarette.I just starred at him as I put out my cigarette too I sighed and rubbed my temples.
"I thought I overdosed." It came out of my mouth suddenly.Syn looked at me as his eyes started to glare.
"Did you have a reason to overdose?" Syn stopped in his tracks looked at me wide eyed.
"I shouldn't have said that." I quickly got up and went into my room taking his shirt off of my body leaving me in just my white laced bra and my black panties.I realised he followed when he gripped my arm and turned me around.We were in a complete dark and he was about 2 inches taller than me he was very close to me our chest touched and his hands held my tiny waist.I could feel his breath on my chin as I looked up into his eyes not toofar away from mine.I felt that tingle all over my body and goosebumps formed on my skin.
"Answer me, why would you think you overdosed?" He spoke in a low voice looking at me with hungry eyes as his fingers started dancing over my low back and waist.It surprised me so much that I moved so close to him I could feel all bumps on his body skin to skin.I looked at him and pushed his chest to stop this charade, these feelings that were bubbling up inside me, they had to stop.
"Why the fuck do you care ?" I spoke loud enough for him to back off.
He moved away from me.
"Because you're my best friend's sister.." he whispered . It's just then that I came to realisation that I had ran towards him and pushed him on my bed and then sat on him lowered my self as he got his hands on my ass and I kissed him, so so hard.Our tongues wrestled together for domination in a such a playful rough way he started getting his hands sll over my body and I felt the hard bulge in his pants beneath me.What am I doing I'm kissing my brother's bestfriednd what the fuck have I been taking.Drugs possibly but not even drugs make you feel this tingling sensation.He was a good kisser the kind of kiss that makes your panties fall right off.Speaking of panties where are mine.They're still on.I got my hand down and gripped that bulge in his pants hard, he growled and and pulled my hair and deepened the kiss further and then in a second I was on my back and felt his hot wet mouth on my neck.I moaned.Fuck, that sound was sexy, he growled and then kissed my chest.I arched my back to his sensational kiss of my breasts.Oh fuck I was tingling everywhere I moaned again and gripped his shoulderblades and scratched hard.He growled again and kissed the srea of my ribcage sucked and licked.My panties were getting wet, when I say wet I mean soaked.He started nibbling on the thin line of were my panties started I moaned loud while pulling his hair and then he sat up straight.I looked at him.He had this sexy gaze that went right through my nerves and triggered them to feel that sensation again.He was so muscilar I loved it.I sat straight up too and looked into his eyes, how come he was calm and I was freaking out, I was turned on for fuck sake.
His hands moved to the area where the strains of my hair were all over the place and he removed them to the side.He then started to caress the skin on my cheeks while looking at me with such wonder.
"Why'd you stop?" I spoke in such a small quiet wishper that he could barely hear.He closed his eyes and leaned his forehead against mine.
"Because if I kiss you any more I won't be able to stop myself from what I'm afraid of." He said and then layed me down.He was holding his weight on his hands.I then touched his chest and looked into his eyes.
"And what exactly is that you are afraid of?" I whispered still exploring his muscilar arms.
"I'm afraid that once I start kissing you right now I won't be able to stop Angie." He said.
"Then don't." I said as I collided our lips into a kiss made of fire.He moaned into my mouth while his tounge explored my mouth.He pushed his hips in between my legs and I moaned and stopped the kiss.He moved his head around a bit to my ear and continued moving his hips torturing my nerves with the sensation I was getting all over my body.He licked my ear and I moaned loudly, I needed to scream but I couldn't I needed to pleasure that feeling down there I needed to satisfy it, I needed to stop it so I could be calm again.
I moaned his name over and over and over into his ear while he kissed and licked the upper part of my body while rubbing that rock hard cock onto my now soaked panties.
"Syn.." I moaned.
"Tell me what you want?Tell me baby.What do you want?" He stopped and I was so dissapointed I tried arching my back and rubbing but he wouldn't let me.I looked into his eyes full of hunger and desire.
"I want you to fuck me." It came out of my mouth before I even had time to consider what was I about to answer him.
"Oh baby..as much as I wish I could do that I can't." He whispered in a low low growling voice into my ear and his breath tickled me so I pushed him off.He was surprised I could see it on his face then he put his hands rubbing his face.
"I need you to go." This went too far, I felt as if I was in trance or dreaming.He sat up on the edge of the bed.He said nothing he picked up his shirt from off the floor but it on and got out of the door.I moved out of his way and then went to my closet to find a dress to wear to sleep then I layed down on the bed and I felt awful.I felt unwanted, used and lonely.I felt rejected.I fwlt like a whore.I then continued sobbing and crying until I fell asleep.
I guess that I am gonna try to put all of this behind me and move on.I will not look at him anymore and tomorrow is gonna be a better day.
It will.I'll do my best for it to be.