reforget; sesha ballins

sixteen

im thinking about making a wrestling book where i write my opinions, rants, predictions, reviews etc. because i wanna write alot of shit but i can't keep writing it here, but can we talk about how sasha was roasting alexa on raw talk? it was amazing.

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i sat in catering alone today, scrolling through my phone.

"what are you smiling about, banks?" seth said while he stood infront of me.

"well that would be none of your business." i smiled slightly and tucked my phone in my pocket.

"you mind?" he motioned to the seat.

do i mind?

"sure." i said and he looked a little relieved.

"you know, im really thankful you gave me a chance. i know i fucked up, but im trying to not bring zahra back here anymore."

"seth, shes your girlfriend. your allowed to bring her back here, just don't rub it in my face like you do." i feel like im always reassuring people about what they say, when really, i just wish seth would leave her.

"i know, and i won't. ive learnt my lesson." he laughed.

"good." i smiled.

talking to him felt so natural and easy, i hate it.

"your first ever title defence tomorrow, you going to retain?"

"guess you gotta watch and see." i smirked.

"oh, ill be watching, don't you worry." he smirked as well. could he not do that?

"what about you, your fighting to be the first ever universal champion. you gonna win?" i averted the attention away from that.

"guess you got to watch and see, babe."

babe. again, could he not do that?

"im not your babe, seth." i roll my eyes and his smirk falled slightly.

"i know, i know." he sighed. "hear the news about the draft that's happening soon? im super pumped." he changed the subject.

"yes." i say smile. "i hope i go to smackdown."

"i hope i go to raw, the bigger brand." seth said.

"just because it's the 'bigger brand' doesn't make it the better brand." i raised my eyebrows.

"true, true." he smiled and looked at me again. "i missed talking to you, sash."

i smiled slightly before looking down, then back at him. "me too." i stare at him for a few more seconds before my phone buzzed, its a text from kevin saying he wants to meet up. i stood up. "well, thats my cue."

seth nodded. "ill see you later?"

"maybe." i said before walking away.

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i checked my hair in the mirror, calming the nerves before my match.

"you feeling okay?" bayley asked from from the bench in my locker room.

"well, im about to walking into summerslam as the wwe womens champion, but then lose my first ever title defense." bayley smiled at me sadly. "don't get me wrong, im happen to even be apart of summerslam, but i just, i don't understand.." what if im never champion again? is charlottes streak really that important?

"they don't want to end charlottes streak, you know?" bayley said.

i nod. "yeah."

"ill be waiting for you." bayley says as i place the title around my waist.

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the bell rung signalling i lost. i lost.

i made my way to the back, as i came through the gorilla seth was standing there, ready for his match which was next, he gave me a light smile as his eyes met mine. the tears were brimming in my eyes but i wasn't going to let them fall. he embraced me in a hug which i excepted.

"im sorry, sash." seth said.

"don't be." i said softly, to weak to even speak louder, i pull away and look up at his eyes that are staring down at me.

"you did great." i just smiled. "that's not the last time you will hold the title."

i nodded.

"i uh, i would stay, but my match is next and- i."

i cut him off. "don't worry about it, im perfectly fine. ill see you later." i said quietly and he looked hesitant but nodded.

i walked away, sighing. this isn't the last time ill hold the title. no point staying sad, i have a rematch, which im winning.

2015 was my year, i was nxt womens champion, i had the best womens match of all time with bayley, and match of the year for wwe. first ever women to headline an nxt pay-per-veiw and an nxt show. i debuted in the wwe. they said i was going to be the greatest womens wrestler of all time, better than lita, better than trish. they all said im the best wwe has produced in a long time, that i was the future.

and i still am all of that, just watch.

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i don't know if the last part made any sense in this book but i mean.