AN OPEN MIND

for him

YOU WAS SO GOOD TO ME AT THE BEGINNING

AND I SWEAR I'LL NEVER FORGET THAT ABOUT YOU

BUT SWEETHEART I WASN'T GOING TO LET YOU RUIN MY INNOCENCE

SAYING YOU LOVED ME WHEN ALL YOU WANTED WAS MY BODY IN YOUR BED

ITS SICKENING TO ME NOW AS I LOOK BACK AT MY PAST SELF

THINKING THAT IF YOU TOUCH MY THIGHS AND CALL ME BEAUTIFUL AFTER YOU'D SEE ME NUDE THAT IT WAS TRUE LOVED

BUT I FOOLED MYSELF SEEING NOW YOU KNEW THAT YOU WAS ONLY PLAYING WITH MY HEART.

IT WAS TRULY TRAUMATIZING FOR ME BECAUSE WHEN YOU LEFT AFTER YOU GOT DONE PLEASURING YOURSELF FROM THE THOUGHT OF ME I STILL FOLLOWED YOU AROUND LIKE A SICK PUPPY.

I WAS SO BLIND TO NOT REALIZE THAT WHEN YOU WHISPERED IN MY EAR AMD KISSED MY NECK YOUR HAND WAS STILL HOLDING HERS.

I REALIZED NOW THE PAST ME DEEP DOWN INSIDE NEW THE TRUTH BUT I COULDN'T ADMIT IT TO MYSELF THAT IT WAS JUST TOXIC AND NOT A FAIRY TALE.

AND MAYBE IF I WOULD'VE JUST LISTEN TO MYSELF

MY GOD MY HEART WOULDN'T OF WHEN THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN AND I WOULD'VE STILLED HAD IT SEWED TOGETHER

BECAUSE TO THIS DAY THERE OUR STILL PIECES OF MY HEART PISSING FROM THE PUZZLE

AND WHAT REALLY FUCKING SHOOK ME IS THAT THE PIECES OF WHAT WAS MISSING WAS STILL FLOWING IN YOUR BLOOD STREAM AND YOU DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT.

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I facepalm every time I see you knowing the some of the strings that was sewed together in my heart are still attached to yours