The Fake Girlfriend

Chapter 29 A New Perspective

So like Wattpad was having trouble when I uploaded this chapter and it put it as a new book. So here you guys go a second time.

Chapter 29

NICK'S POV

I punched the plastic bag again.

And again.

And again.

I pushed all of my force into it until my arms were aching and my knuckles begging at their joints to unclench, unclench, unclench.

But I continued. The smack of my fist against the plastic echoing through out the small room and my knees locking from my heavy weight of guilt and confusion.

Rayne had left, she walked out. And I just sat there.

"I just sat there!" I screamed through clenched teeth and threw a strong fist into the punching bag.

That was it, I couldn't do it anymore. My arms collapsed at my sides, my head hanging in exhaustion and a trickle of sweat dripping down the length of my face. It had been over an hour since I had come in here to take my anger out. An hour and a half since I just sat on the floor as I could hear retreating footsteps and the gentle close of my apartment door.

It was sad. I was a sad, cruel man.

If I didn't have this small workout room in my house, I would have pushed my fist straight through the wall. I hated myself, I was sickened at who I was. How could I possibly let a girl like Rayne just walk out my front door?

I sat on the bench, my head falling voluntarily into my hands as if it was too heavy to uphold itself. My neck was too weak, my knees jelly, and my hands throbbing like an individual heart.

I couldn't lie to her, I just couldn't. At the fashion show feelings had resurfaced with Anna and I hadn't watched myself, I didn't realize what I had been doing. I guess I didn't realize how it affected Rayne either.

The thing was I knew I couldn't be with Anna, I've accepted that fact. But ever since Rayne came into my life I felt like I could actually live again. The blood that originally pumped it's way from my heart was now electric, alive with human emotions and thoughts I've never had before.

My heart was now beating for her.

Not for Anna. But the feelings I had for her couldn't just be pushed away so easily. At one point she had been my best friend, until I ruined it, let it take over me. I wanted to be with Rayne, I knew that honest sincerity in my bones. I just didn't know how to show it anymore, didn't know how to exactly let go of Anna completely.

I listened to the steady thump of beating from chest, my heart letting out an unknown rhythm. I ached, not just from boxing but emotionally, my stomach was in knots that I haven't had since my first performance as a kid.

I sighed and decided it was time for a nap.

***So this was a filler chapter because I'm working on a really big part right now in the story. So comment and vote guys!

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