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Entry #5

[Chanyeol's POV]

How could he do this to me..

I thought we're forever? He promised me he would never cheat on me.

But what is this? :/

"B-baekhyun..I love you so so much even it really hurts for me.. H-how could you do this? I even t-trusted you on Sehun but I regret it so m-much.." I sobbed. Realizing the thought that our 8th monthsary was suppose to be tomorrow.

I cried. I sobbed. My eyes were so painful. It was all covered with tears. 

"C-chanyeol.." I turned my back and saw Baekhyun..

I wiped my tears away. I'm gonna show him that this Chanyeol is brave.

"Why are you here?" I said coldly. Enduring all the stings and stungs in my heart.

"Y-yeol.. Jebal. Let me explain.." He was sobbing. His voice is breaking out. I don't even want to see him suffer like that but I have to. 

"You don't have to explain. Everything is clear out ok? Go away. I don't want to see you anymore." My knees were trembling. I couldn't believe that I said that. I was expecting he'll go away but he didn't. Instead, he walked towards me. 

He backhugged me and said, "C-chanyeol. Please. I love y-you..Don't be like this.. I s-still wanna celebrate t-tomorrow.. Jebal.." His sobbing was hard. My heart is aching. He remembered our 8th monthsary? 

"AISH! STOP BEING SO CLINGY! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE! I DON'T LOVE YOU! AND I WON'T! J-JUST! AH! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FUCKING FACE HERE BAEKHYUN!" My eyes widened. I can't believe that I cussed. That was the first time I cussed Baekhyun.. Is this really me?

"J-jinjja? You hated me? You didn't l-love me? So that was o-only lust?" He smiled frankly. "Its okay.. I know y-you don't love me anymore. Y-you don't want to see me? Fine. Just wait ok?" He smiled once again. I saw his eyes full of sorrow. I don't want to see him suffer like that. I feel guilty. And what did he mean about waiting?

[Baekhyun's POV]

So that was it? It wasn't love. It was only lust?

"H-how could you Chanyeol.." I opened my door and locked it. I don't want to go outside. I look awful. My eyes were too swollen but he didn't even care. I know he hates to see me suffer but he didn't even cared about me?

He never cussed in front of me. But what happened? Where's the Chanyeol I fell inlove with?

But. I couldn't blame him. Because this was my fault. Its all my fault.

(Next Morning)