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Entry #6

[Sehun's POV]

Aish. Eottokhae? Eottokhae? Lulu hyung is mad at me~ And who's fault is it? Mine! >.<

I'm really really worried at Baekhyun hyung. He's pale. He's getting weaker and thinner this days.

But he'll always say "It's better." What does he mean by that? And now he wants me to talk with Lulu hyung? Aishhh~I can't. Lulu hyung is always with Xiumin hyung. And I can't do anything but look at them. I don't love Lulu hyung anymore. I want Baekkie hyung. But, I still have to apologize to Lulu hyung which I can't.

"Uhhh..Lulu hyung. I'm sorry for what i've done. Buy me bubbletea? Bbuing bbuing?" Aish! Its too informal. And Lulu hyung is mad at me. He wouldn't buy me a bubbletea.

"Uh. Luhannie~ Sehunnie regrets everything. I'm sorry." That sounds nice. Hmm~But eopseo. Its still not enough! Jinjja! Yes! I'm practicing how am I going to apologize to Lulu hyung.

"Luhan.. I know I caused a huge problem about us. But. I just can't take it seeing you and Xiumin hyung always laughing at each other. How come that you can't laugh like that when your with me?" I was interrupted when I saw my vision getting blurry. This tears again. I hate seeing myself cry. I really don't understand my feelings right now. Do I still love Lulu hyung? Or I still love Baekkie hyung? Jinjjayo. Its making me crazy.

"What are you doing in my room?" I was startled when I heard his voice. Yes. I'm in his room.

"L-lulu hyung. Please.. Let m-me explain.." 

"I don't take explanations."

"H-hyung. Please. Listen to me just this o-once.." 

"AND THEN WHAT SEHUN?! THEN WHAT? FUCKING CHEAT WITH ME AGAIN HUH SEHUN? YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU BROKE MY HEART SEHUN. YOU FUCKING BROKE MY HEART. I DIDN'T EVEN CHEAT ON YOU ONCE!!" I cutted him and pinned him on the wall and slammed the door close.

"LUHAN HYUNG! JUST FUCKING LISTEN TO ME OK?! YOU KNOW WHY? I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LAUGH SO MUCH WHEN YOU'RE WITH XIUMIN HYUNG. WHY DON'T YOU LAUGH WITH ME LIKE THAT TOO? WHENEVER I WANT TO GO TO THE BUBBLE TEA STORE, YOU ALWAYS REFUSE ME AND GO SHOPPING WITH XIUMIN HYUNG INSTEAD! Y-YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW *HUK* HOW I FEEL! *HUK* T-THAT DAY. THAT FUCKING DAY. YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE SICK THAT YOU CAN'T GO WITH ME TO THE MALL, BUT WHAT DID I SAW WHEN I GOT HOME HUH LUHAN HYUNG? I SAW YOU AND XIUMIN HYUNG. PLAYING PILLOW FIGHT. AND WHAT DID YOU TOLD ME? YOU TOLD ME YOU BECAME FINE? J-JUST! *HUK* WHAT THE HELL LUHAN HYUNG! *HUK* I l-loved you too. But. Y-you were always m-making me a third w-wheel between you and X-xiumin hyung.."I was suppose to walk away but Lulu hyung pulled me to a hug.

"M-mianhae Sehunnie. Mianhae. I was a b-bad boyfriend. I was really b-bad. I'm sorry.." He was sobbing. I hate it when someone is crying but. I'm still mad at him.

He stared at me. Our foreheads touching. I wore my usual pokerface but, Lulu hyung closed his eyes, and went nearer and nearer.