An open ended letter to you

Your role as my friend.

So I'm one of the only girls in the group.
I don't care.
You have a responsibility to me.
Even if you end up catching feelings.
Especially if you end up catching feelings.

If I say that I am going out,
It is your duty to go with me.
I don't care if you have gone out the past two nights.
I'm going out tonight cause you didn't invite me last night.

You have to go,
Not because you'll hurt my feelings if you don't,
Which you did.
But to protect me.

Tonight was my last night home.
I told ALL of you that I'd be going out.
I asked ALL of you to come with me.
But only two came.
Thank God for them.

The rest of you let me down.
You didn't know they were going.
You knew that I was going,
And that I might end up going alone.
But you still didn't come.

Why didn't you come?
As my friends,
You should be there to support me.
Not let me down on the last night you'll see me for half a year.

If it weren't for the two guys that came,
Tonight could have ended very differently.
A man at the bar was watching me as I finished my drink.
Keep in mind it was only my second and the first he'd seen of me.

The man asked me to follow him.
He walked far away from the bar.
A DJ was playing loud music back at the bar
And where he led me,
Not many could see us.

If one of the two that came with me that night didn't follow,
I may have been raped.
Even after he told the guy to go away,
He and his friends followed us.

I needed you.
All of you.
And you let me down.
Forget the fact that it was my last night.
You should have been there for me no matter what.
It is your role as my friend.
You have lost my trust at this point.
Only three still have it.