Entangled Woman

Part2-Decisions,decisions...!

July had tears in her eyes when I walked in,She was so upset I could get her breathing from the door.I didn't know if should get it or not.But it was better to find out from her than daddy,far better.I mustered courage and got in...she stared at me.She wasn't in a good mood at all,I could tell that she had already held my throat in her mind,I wasn't foolish enough to take one more step,she could have seriously dealt with me.I left the room as fast as I could,but then she called me,I didn't hesitate at all,I went straight back in.Then I sat down.If there is one thing I've learnt from her,it's this,when she is upset,let her for the talking,if by any chance you interrupt her...her finger print will be left on your jaws without you having an idea how it happened! I think she never realised it,but to me July was just like father! Crazy but calm, arrogant but nice,they were thesame and that explains why they never got along.

"Rubie " she said almost breaking into tears."He wants me to quit school,I don't want to.I can't, I wouldn't. He can't boss me around,he can't,we have enough money,enough! I have to go to school,I want to".Then she gave me that look,that look she has when she gets an idea "You will help me right?" "You have to help me".
July was full of ideas,she came out with ideas about everything,in fact she was an idea!but most times,those ideas of hers though brilliant ended up in a fiasco...why?because daddy caught them.
But they were usually fun,adventurous...I liked it! After,we find ourselves in crazy pillow fights...we could be anything to each other depending on the occasion we could be accomplices,enemies but to me it was all totally worth it.But this time,it was a crazy idea,I could basically read her mind and what she had in there,scared me.

She gave me this creepy smile that always made me do what she wanted but this time it wasn't working, she was going to get into big trouble but I knew better,she never listened!
"I will sneak out of the house and leave tonight,you will help me pack my things,I want to run away,I need to run away and never come back,you guys can handle him! You'll help me right?

I couldn't say no,but I couldn't say yes either...I couldn't say no.Why? Because I just loved pleasing her,even when she was mean to me,I felt obliged to please her,when I saw her happy,that made me happy.She was the only sister I had,call me lunatic or what ever,but that's just me.I couldn't say yes either because if dad found,we would regret it for the rest of our lives,we'll be grounded for forever!We'll have no say in anything at all and our lives will be even more pathetic than it is,I wish she could understand...I don't know why I always found myself placed between two difficult choices...I didn't want to get her more upset than she already was.But I had to make the right decision.
"I'm sorry,I can't".
"Get out " she yelled.
As always she didn't understand why I did what I did...I left the room sad and depressed like always.
I guess it was always like this between us,it couldn't have ever possibly changed or could it?