Our love gone wrong

Our end

The next 5 months were weird. I stopped feeling these feelings of doubt as much. But he gained these feelings. He started to think too, that we needed to date other people. But instead of just telling me this he lied. He lied a lot. He told me fake stuff about his dad. He said his dad thinks we shouldn't have a relationship lasting this long. He told me his dad started taking away his phone at 10:00 every night. That his dad wasn't allowing him to come over. He said this was all Because he was dating me, but he wanted to continue. But the truth is I felt so bad that his dad was doing this. I told him I couldn't stand to see his dad do this to him because of me. So I told him we had to end it for once and for all. That night was rough. I got no sleep at all. Because I hit the realization that I had lost everything that made me who I am. I built myself based off of this guy. He made me so happy. My happiness was now gone without him. He texted me in the morning and asked if I was fine. I told him the truth that I wasn't. At school it was so weird. He seemed fine while I sat there in every Single class crying. Everybody knew I was broken. But nobody even asked. My 2 best friends were there for me and that was all that kept me going. Him and I didn't talk 2 days. Then he told me something that I'll never forget. He said " Paige I still love you it's just my dad won't let us be together right now. We can still talk behind the other girls backs until you and I can get back together. " So that night we talked like nothing changed. We forgot the world for a day. At school I didn't cry anymore. He still walked me to class. He told me he loved me. Then people started to talk. People realized that we were still a thing. He become undateable and he couldn't stand for that. I don't know if he'll ever realize how much happiness that one day brought me... but it made me feel...not so broken. For a day I felt fulfilled again. Then he ruined it. I found out his dad never made him break up with me. He just wanted to date me while dating other people. He had finally got the feelings I prayed for. He told me he hadn't been happy for 5 months. 5 months ago was when I prayed for him to get those feelings. He told me he never loved me. And to this day, I remember the amount of hurt that brought me. I vividly remember feeling like my whole entire heart was shattering. The boy who I would die for would rather me die. He couldn't care less about me.....