Our love gone wrong

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Nothing remained the same from this. Kyle turned into a horrible person. He hurt so many people. He became the talk of the town (that wasn't hard to do). But of course I still see the light in him. Nobody else saw it. But I did. I knew deep down there's so so so much good in that kid. The boy I loved wasn't completely gone. I'm holding on to nothing. I'm the only person who defends him when people say bad things. But nobody ever told him that. He never realized how much I love him. I could've changed who I was. I could've ruined his reputation by talking bad about him with everybody...but I didn't. I was the person he crushed the most and I was the one who would always always stick up for him. Why do I see the good in people when there's so little? Why do I hold on to nothing? I have such a huge heart and I hate it. My big heart is the one thing that ruins me. I could write novels about the kind of pain I experienced. But I'm not going to. I don't want anybody to think Kyle is a horrible person. Because he isn't. Even though it's so so hard to search for I still see there's gotta be good deep down. It crushes me to see him act so horrible. But he's still good. Every night I pray so so hard for the good to shine through and realize all of his mistakes. Maybe he would've been better off if he never met me... Maybe he wouldn't of spiraled out of control. But one thing I can say is I'm glad I met him. I wouldn't take back those amazing 2 years. He made me who I was in many ways. And it crushes me to see him a bad person.