Love Hate (Dan Howell)

Chapter 13-I just care

Dan actually spoke to me for the first time today, infact it was as soon as I got up.

It's Monday today but Alex and I aren't in work for the next two weeks because there's other shifts other people have to do or some shit like that. But either way Alex and I were quite please to be off for a few weeks, even if I loved seeing him everyday work is tiring, even if is serving up coffee and being nice to people.

When I walked out of my room this morning to get some cereal, Dan walked out of his room at the same time and we both headed for the stairs, still some awkward tension between us.

"Shouldn't you be at work?" He had asked me. It was 11am and he hadn't been in the room when I told Phil about getting two weeks off.

"Shouldn't you be giving me the silent treatment?" I fired back at him. He seemed slightly taken aback, he just smirked as if he hadn't basically stuck his tongue down my throat just a few nights before.

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"Seriously?" I wonder aloud.

Phil has just mentioned that we all have a sleepver tonight, set up at tent, (in the living room obviously, what peasant would go outside!?) get sleeping bags, hot chocolate,  marshmallows. And the reason I am so surprised is because Phil just said that Alex can come.

"No, no way. That poof isn't coming into our house again" Dan spits, I pick up the tv remote from the side of the couch and launch it at his head, it goes flying across the room. ( The remote, not his head.)

"You could have killed me!" He over exaggerates, screaming,  after I miss by the tiniest bit.

"Shit! That's what I was aiming for"

He scowls at me and gives me the finger.

"Daaan! What's wron with Alex? He is lovely" Phil argues.

"He's bent backwards" he smirks with a stupid smile on his face because he thinks he's so funny.

"Shut up Daniel, just shut up!" I exclaim and raise a cushion, threatening to throw it. He flinches but sits up again when I place it down.

"Whatever, have your stupid sleepover, just don't expect me to be a part of it." He says to Phil and I and then he walks out the room.

"THANKS FOR THE LOVELY HOMOPHOBIC COMMENTS!" I scream at him and before I know it the tears are rolling down my face. Because of Dan again. Phil shuffles over beside me and hugs me tight. I really like Alex and I want Dan to like him too, or at least respect him, but no, he has to say hateful things about him when he's done nothing wrong.

"Please don't cry because of him Skye, he's just in a bad mood because he won't get peace to...well... do whatever he does at night... which is basically just the internet" Phil comforts me and I laugh at his last comment.

"I really like Alex, Phil, and I would just like Dan to be able to get along with him" I cry into Phil's chest. We have had many moments like this, moments where Phil has hugged me endlessly because of some reason like I just got dumped by the boy I thought I was 'the one' when I was about 15, those kinds of things seem so stupid now. Phil used to cry into me too sometimes, I remember this one time when he was 18 and he really liked this girl called Sara and he did everything to get her and when they finally started dating he went over to her house one day to see her and she was fucking her ex. That broke Phil, it really did, it took him a long time to get over that one.

I feel kind of bad getting Phil's top this wet but he doesn't seem to mind. He lifts my head off of him and looks at me, in this horrific state.

"Why do you care so much if Dan likes Alex or not?" He asks me. I look up at him, and realisation hits me. Why do I care if Dan likes Alex? Because I care about Dan, I care about him so much, it doesn't matter how much he has hurt me or will hurt me, how much he will hurt the people around me, I still care about him so frickin much and I don't even know why. He's made it pretty obvious he hates me and he just wants Phil back but I still want him, I may as well admit it, I love him. I love him so damn much and nothing will ever stop that.

Phil tilts my chin up so my eyes meet his.

"Because I love him" I answer his question.

He nods at me, pity in his eyes.

"I know Skye, I know."