I need you (Josh Dun) Book 1 [EDITING]

Chapter 27

Mia's POV--->Listen to the song at top while reading 

As I was talking to my friends,Samantha and Sarah, they decided to be the worst friends ever and leave me.Sam left me for her boyfriend whom I don't even know, and Sarah left me for Brendon. He's nice but I don't really know a lot about him. The only thing I really know is that he's in a band but whatever back to reality. I didn't know where Josh was so I went looking for him, after about 20 minutes of looking for him I couldn't find him and I realized that I had to pee really bad so I ran upstairs to the bathroom. My hand was on the bathroom's door knob when I heard some disgusting moaning coming from my room next-door, my room, I groaned. I knew it's nasty to walk in there and kick them out but come in they're in my room. I opened the door. Only to find Jess straddling Josh on MY bed in MY room on MY birthday. I gently closed the door. They didn't even notice me there. I walked into my bathroom,closing the wall, and sliding my body against the wall as i started sobbing.

Recap ---->>>>> 8 months ago

I was happy hanging out with my best friend Jess and My boyfriend Awsten.

I ordered some pizza but it was too early for delivery so I had to go pick it up and I left Jess and Awsten together at the house. I trusted them. I was away for about 40 minutes and I came back home. When I walked in I notice both of them were missing so I went upstairs to My room to see Jess straddling Awsten just like how she was straddling Josh right now. I was stupid enough to forgive them.

Back to present

I stood up and straightened my shirt, I also reapplied my mascara because it was dripping down my cheeks. I went back downstairs and acted like nothing happened. I felt numb.

"IT'S TIME TO CUT THE CAKE!" Yelled Tyler from the kitchen.

I stood up and walked in there with everyone. Josh then came down the stairs with messy hair. He was walking up to me

"happy birthday baby!" he said as he was about to hug me I yelled

"DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME" I backed away from him. I was disgusted to even be in the same room as him right now. I cant believe I trusted him. I was so stupid to think he actually loved me.

"Mia are you ok?" asked Tyler as he saw me starting to break down. People started gathering up around us.

"if you consider finding your boyfriend fucking your ex best friend in your own room on your birthday being ok then yes I'm totally fine. Happier than ever" everyone gasped

Josh looked down

"I'm sorry baby it was a mistake. You weren't suppose to find out i don't know where it went wrong this time" Josh said

I looked up at him with a very noticeable glare mixed with a look of disbelief

"oh so you've done this more than once"

He hit his forehead with his palm 

"will you get even madder if i say I wasn't suppose to say that either?"

"you know what Josh?" I asked

He looked up at me with a hopeful stare. His eyes so close to overflowing.

"what?" he asked barely audible

"fuck you. fuck everyone. fuck my life. If you did not like me you should've told me. It would have of save me all the pain I'm going through right now. I should have known that this relationship was one sided"

"what do you mean one sided?" he asked desperately with frustration in his voice

"I was the only one actually trying to make this work because even if you knew this relationship was going to fail you should've have told me. I would not have wasted all this time on this thing that I would not even call a relationship now that I think about it. I hope you have a happy fucking birthday. Because I for sure fucking didn't"

Trigger warning

I then walked out of my house leaving everyone there. I went in my car and drove the furthest I could away from everyone. I was too embarrassed to stay there and plus I didn't want to be in the same room that the two people I hated the most in life fucked in. I felt bad for leaving the party because I finally was having a fun time with Tyler and I love my brother, but I cant stand being there. Everything is fucking bullshit. I ended up stopping at some bridge. I parked by it and started to think about everything. I know I should not do this but what is there to live for everyone is the same lying fucks, they promise you something and they end up breaking the promise even if they promise on their lives. I left everything including my phone and wallet in the car. I stood by the bridge. Once again everything bad that has happened to me flashed through my mind. I grabbed on to the railing. I had second thoughts but I didn't care. I let go of the railing. As I was about to fall someone caught me and held my hand pulling me up I looked up to see Ryan.

Don't kill me please. One more chapter is left. If you do not remember Ryan is Mia's friends the one that worked at starbucks whom she also talked to at the dance and Josh got jealous. Yeah next chapter is the last so brace yourselves :) I love you all so much