Glass Promises

Chapter Seven

As summer came, the days grew longer and hotter. Sometimes, it was a nice little break to focus more about the heat then what's going on inside your own head.

"Nope. Enough is enough." I say aloud to myself as I put on my bathing suit. "Today is my day. This is my summer and even if it's just one day I get to be free from him, it's enough. It's a me day." I say in hopes to convince myself. I've always had this idea that if I believed something enough that'd it'd become true. I put on a pair of sunglasses, slung a towel over my shoulder and then headed upstairs. I went out beside the pool and set up a chair next to the glass table. I put my towel on the back of the chair and placed my sunglasses on the towel. I could feel the sun start to burn on my back in just the few minutes I was out there preparing. I scurried back inside for a few more crucial elements of my day of relaxation. I open up the fridge, and look into it, the cool air feeling so comforting compared to the harsh heat outside. I grabbed a pitcher of iced tea and poured into a glass, fancily topping it off with a lemon wedge and a straw. Rushing around the house, I grabbed a small speaker, my phone and much needed sunscreen. Humming to myself I grabbed my drink and strategically balanced my items in my arms. Somehow, miraculously was able to open the door and close it, using my elbow. Pleased with my own actions, I gave myself a quick sip of my drink before going back to my chair and as gently as possible putting the objects down.

Finally able to relax, underneath the umbrella with a drink at hand and a pool nearby, I let out a sigh of content. With the sun that was able to get to me, it was clearly reflected with the generous amount of sunscreen I had applied. It was sticky and oily but all worth it to not have to deal with an awful burn on top of being put down all night. I didn't need two things keeping me awake. The speaker played songs that I enjoyed, softly but a perfect volume for just me to enjoy.

After feeling like I had been just about baked, I went into the pool. Without a second thought, I jumped in. Quickly, within less than a second, I was surrounded by water. The seconds I spent submerged underwater felt like minutes, slow ticking minutes. I kept my eyes closed and let myself drift down with the impact of the jump. I came back up and pushed my hair out of my face, it sticking to the sides of my face. I sucked in a breath, welcoming air. I floated on my baking, staring up at the sky. A few birds chased each other, twirling about and diving down every now and again. Life would be much simpler if I was a bird...
"Look. You. Have. The. Perfect. Opportunity. Just. End. It. Drown. Yourself." His voice echoed through my head. Of course he'd show up, it never fails. I let out an audible sigh of frustrated and stood up, no longer floating.
No...
'No...' I thought. Already I could feel my breath hitch in my throats and begin to tremble. "No.." I say out loud, my voice wavering.
"Yes." He countered.
"Yes..." I finally said,softly in a weak voice. I go to the ladder of the pool and hook my legs around one of the steps and submerge myself.
This is what he wanted
This is what I wanted
The seconds move by so slowly, each one more agonising then the last. I eel my lungs begging for air, a burning sensation pulsing through them. It takes everything in my power to not give up and let go. Darkness inches at the corners of my vision, resembling pure black tv static. I untangle my legs in weak desperation and in big gulps, suck at the air. I move over to the edge of the pool, hanging over it and coughing.
"You ruined my day." I say bitterly, my voice hoarse. I crawl out of the water, feeling like a wet cat. My body feels heavy, everything seemingly drained from me. I flop onto my chair and pull at my towel, wrapping it around me and closing my eyes. The sun warms me quickly and soothes my body.

"We will try again soon."