Memories cloud my mind/
Everyone believes that I'm fine/
Under this mask it hurts/
I've tried everything from drugs to home remedies and nothing seems to work/
The one solution I know that will work isn't plausible/
A gun to my head would be cold and the bullet would release the stress that your end pulls/
A rope would be hot but the rope isn't strong enough for my neck/
I even tried to kill myself by jumping in front of a car/
But I saw your face on the windshield and move back before I worsened the scar/
I don't know why but life seems to like my suffering/
Even when I purposely start shakin' like a seisure and laugh to start chokin'/
I still end up wakin' up from a deep sleep/
I swear I saw a vision of you movin' towards me in my dream/
Tears stream quickly as I think of all the things/
We used to do when I was little I start to cough/
Hopin' that this is my time to die and perish off/
Maybe not in the sky but someplace I can see you/
Memories cloud my mind/
Everyone believes that I'm fine/
Under this mask it hurts/
I've tried everything from drugs to home remedies and nothing seems to work/
The one solution I know that will work isn't plausible/
A gun to my head would be cold and the bullet would release the stress that your end pulls/
A rope would be hot but the rope isn't strong enough for my neck/
I even tried to kill myself by jumping in front of a car/
But I saw your face on the windshield and move back before I worsened the scar/
I don't know why but life seems to like my suffering/
Even when I purposely start shakin' like a seisure and laugh to start chokin'/
I still end up wakin' up from a deep sleep/
I swear I saw a vision of you movin' towards me in my dream/
Tears stream quickly as I think of all the things/
We used to do when I was little I start to cough/
Hopin' that this is my time to die and perish off/
Maybe not in the sky but someplace I can see you/
I lay down closing my eyes believing in the morning I can't any white nor blue/
I started feeling cold chills all over/
Yes Yes I yell as I fade away feeling lucky as a four leaf clover/
As the wind blew by someone was caling my name out/
Death would probably be cool if you weren't able to hear as you were blinking away your three last breaths instead of your last words that could come out your drying mouth/
And just as you thought you were safe reality comes in at the last minute when the bell rings scared as hell you could've been caught/
Failin' now because of these paranoid thoughts
-shade12L
