Foster Care//Phan [Complete]

Chapter 17

Phil's POV

I smiled happily as I walked upstairs to Dan's room. "Dan! I'm home!" I called out, but there was no answer. I walked into his room and went to the conjoint bathroom, not seeing him in there. I turned around and went back into his room, stopping when I saw 4 notes laying on his bed. One for me. One for Adrian. One for my mum and dad. And lastly one for Chris and PJ. I raised an eyebrow and grabbed the one to me, opening it and starting to read...

Dear Phil,

The amount of time we were together I started to feel the darkness being chased away by your light. However, I've spent two weeks feeling pushed to the side for Tyler. I have felt so much pain. Adrian isn't getting better and it scares me. Your parents have been amazing people Phil. I'm glad they took us in... Adrian needs them right now. He also needs you. Please be the happy sunshine I know you are and take care of my little brother.

I feel it's time for me to g0. This world has put me through enough and I can't take it anymore. I don't want to be here. I know you said I'd be safe but the more you spent time with Tyler the more I cut. You say you love me but Phil... My brain won't believe it. Your amazing heart was no place for a monster like me... So I doubt you really love me. I'm ugly... I've lost loads of weight. I'm anti-social. And I'm probably the worst big brother alive.

Although all of that maybe true about myself. Another thing I know could never be a lie. Is that I love you, Philip Lester. You are a wonderful person and I hope you don't grieve over me being gone. But I must depart this earth. Please go to uni, get married, adopt amazing children. Live your life as if you never met me. By the time you've seen this and read it all I will have been dead in the basement...

I love you...Goodbye,

Daniel James Howell... your bear <3

I finished reading, tears were streaming down my face. I got up and quickly ran to the basement, seeing Dan. His beautiful brown eyes were closed and he looked limp. I began to cry harder and harder. I saw him twitch slightly. I bent down and pressed my ear to his chest. I heard a faint heartbeat.

I quickly grabbed my phone and called the emergency services.

"999, what's your emergency"

"M-my boyfriend tried to commit suicide" I choked out, still crying.

"We'll send help right away, what's the address?"

I told them the address and soon hung up. I sat beside Dan's practically limp body. "I-It's gonna be okay Dan... It's gonna be okay" I whispered softly as I played with his hair. I cried and kept crying. I could see his breathing fading. He was right on the edge of death. On the edge of being gone forever. "I-I'm so sorry Dan..." I whispered softly as I waited for the ambulance to arrive.