Lost... Without You

Chapter 4: The Past

Amber's POV

When we got back to the rest of the band, they were just how we had left them. all sitting around laughing and drinking beer.

I went over to Cay and sat next to her on the faux leather couch. She looked me up and down and realized whose clothes I was in. She got a huge grin on her face.

"Oh stop!" I whispered at her sharply.

She just kept smiling and winked at me before turning back to face Matt.

Brian sat on the chair next to the couch, close to me. I could tell he wanted to talk. This was just all so new to me. I had never worn a guys clothes before... I had not flirted with anyone since my junior year in high school. Before everything happened...

Brian reached to touch my arm and I flinched.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." Brian said smiling a little.

"Oh. It's alright. I was just zoning out." I laughed a small laugh.

"So we are that boring huh?" He chuckled.

"No! That's not it at all! I have just been out of it lately..." I shrugged.

He laughed again. "So Amber, tell me about yourself."

"What do you want to know?" I asked.

"Anything you think I should know about you." He smiled, his chocolate eyes smoldering. He was so hot!

"Well, I was born in Colorado and moved to California when I was 18 and have been living here ever since."

I moved here for my sanity. After that night, my parents and therapist thought it would be a good idea to get away from the scene.. I had felt so bad uprooting my family like that. 

I had never been the type to blame myself for everything that happened, but since that night, I had begun to feel inferior to everyone else. Dirty. And I would constantly blame myself for things that happened to my family, even if there was no way it could be my fault.

"Nice. I have lived here all of my life. I love it here. Do you like it?" Brian asked me.

"It is very beautiful. The weather is definitely better than Colorado." I smiled. I loved the warm weather. I had always hated the cold and snow.

Jimmy came and sat next to Brian on the arm rest of the chair, effectively ending our conversation.

"You know. These girls are extremely hot." He drunkenly slurred. "Especially this one here." He pointed at me.

I smiled. "Thank you Jimmy. You are pretty hot yourself."

He laughed and I looked at my phone. It was 2:30 in the morning.

"Shit.. Cay we gotta go." I looked over at Caylee, who was totally making out with Matt. Crap.

Brian and Jimmy laughed when they saw my expression.

I ignored them and smacked Cay in the back.

"What the hell?!" She turned around to face me, lipstick everywhere on her face but her lips.

"We have to go." I showed her my phone.

She groned and unwillingly stood up.

Matt stood up after her. "Let me give you my number so we can continue this another time."

She smiled and nodded her head enthusiastically, handing him her phone. He punched his number in and handed it back to her.

They kissed a last time and Brian came up to me.

He opened his mouth to ask me something, but Jimmy jumped in front of him and wrapped me in a hug. I gasped, surprised.

"You better come back to see us Amber!"

I laughed. "You bet Jimmy." I may not like many guys, but Jimmy was the exception. I knew that he was a genuine person who had a good heart. I could trust him.

He put me down and Cay grabbed my arm and led me out the door before I could say anything to anyone else.

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                                                                       Brian's POV

"Fucking hell Jimmy!!" I yelled after the girls had left.

He looked at me innocently . "What did I do?"

"I was about to give her my number when you jumped in!" I punched him in the arm

He just laughed. What an ass...

I knew that I had to see her again. It couldn't end at today.

There was just something about her.. She was so closed off. So mysterious. I loved it. It pulled me in and made me want to know more and more about her. To know her secrets.

I went back to the bus and fell into my bunk.

I will see her again. I will make sure of it.

Tomorrow is another day...

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