Worth Letting Go

Epilogue

EPILOGUE

5 years later…

“Do you Alexzander Avellano take this woman in front of you to be your lawfully wedded wife.” Narinig kong tanong ng pari.

“I do.”

Masaya na ako ngayon…

“You may now kiss the bride.”

Sabi ng pari, biglang tumulo ang luha galing sa mata ko,

 I thought I’d lost everything, still I kept hanging on

Because no matter how hard it would get, I know it would be worth it.

Back then, I started to feel doubts, doubts that we’d still last

And we started to have gap, each time our eyes met, I tried to look plain,

Hiding my fears of loosing everything,

If it wasn’t for me, If I hadn’t let my guards down, If I hadn’t made that mistake, and If I hadn’t put myself in this situation, would we still be happy like we used to??

When everything changes in an instant, life became numb for me

Siya lang yung naging pag-asa ko,

I felt like letting go, to free us both from this situation, how can life be so cruel? I was just starting to love..

And to end everything, to just let it fly with the wind..

Nakita ko ang saya mula sa mata niya, this is the greatest view I would never forget. Sinubukan kong kalimutan siya,

But the thought kills me, hindi ko ata kakayaning malayo sa kanya, okay lang kahit magalit man siya sakin, kahit kamuhian niya ako, I could pretend to be fine when I know I’m not, eventhough  it isn’t right..

I’d still hold a grip, and any moment my heart might break into pieces.

 Hindi ko kakayaning palayain siya, I don’t want to lose that smile, and I think day by day its starting to fade, Its obvious that I’m only dreaming , but I’d rather bury myself in agony and sleep with piercing pain just to keep the things we had .. our friendship..

“Naz!” tawag niya, He smiled at me..

I am standing at the side of the altar, looking at the man I used to love saying his vow in front of the church at the girl he’s in love with, his wife.

“I’m happy for you naz, congratulations!” Nakangiti kong tugon kahit alam kong sa loob ko , nasasaktan ako.

Ako siguro ang kaharap niya ngayon, yung taong sasabihan niya ng ‘I do’

I thought we were meant for each other, but no, destiny made its match, and it wasn’t me and him, luckily I survived,yes he tried to see me, but I said I don’t love him anymore and that he needs to let me go, and he accepted it. Bumalik ako after 3 years, but then I saw him happy with someone new, I was too late.

Kung sinabi niya lang sanang ayaw na niya, kung sinabi niya lang na di niya na ako mahal, kahit masakit, Ill be the one to let go..

Now, I’ll be keeping this to myself, I have nothing to regret, as long as he’s happy, I can say.. this is it… Its my time to let go…

This is Zandra Coronelle ‘naz’ and I think this is … THE END.