Hidden thoughts and deadly feelings

Call her alice

I know this girl. Call her Alice. She was a sweet girl but life was changing her. She was just looking for a way to escape the world she knew. She was desperately holding on to what she hoped would come. Many said she stumbled down the rabbit hole, but really she was pushed. Not that it really mattered. She fell at break neck speed and plummeted into her biggest fantasy. Or nightmare. She found friends in this mysterious world. The world was beautiful, at first. She began to see that things weren't as perfect as they seemed. Then things became painfully real. She was terrified of the queen of hearts because she saw her at her worst. She was made ugly by her hate and bitterness. Alice's fear made her paranoid and fake. She plastered on her smile. Quite honestly her heart hurt every time they believe her carefully crafted mask. Inside she knew she couldn't blame them, she had gotten quite good at hiding her pain. She knew that the Hatter couldn't help. That didn't stop her from wishing for his presence. She missed tea time. She missed his goofy smile. She missed his gentle love. Tweetle dee and Tweetle dum while they were cute, they believed her words. They never question if she really was hurting. The king of hearts, he thought he could save her. The queen was too far gone to be saved. Alice worried about the dream world. It was feeling more like a nightmare. She saw Hatter in the king. She was frightened by the hatter's habits. Determined to save him, she had to become the person that she hated most. The queen of hearts. The world outside was cruel but it is nothing compared to the dark corners of Alice's mind. In the world she created she was the bad guy and the good guy. She was forced to give up what she wanted most. In the end she couldn't tell the difference between the two worlds. "For Hatter" self sacrifice dripping into her words. "off with her head" she whispered as the blade of the guillotine came down on her delicate neck.