Zelink Oneshots

Saying Goodbye

Even though I have the most amazing, supportive family ever, the rest of the world isn't as  kind. I think I deal with abandonment issues sometimes with the way I write.... lol...

Anyways, this is barely 500 words, but I hope it'll suffice... Trying to write is hard now...

This is dedicated to Dreamer1530 for voting and commenting on my work recently :))) I appreciate it a ton!

Thanks to Zelinkie for another awesome cover!  

Please do the support thing - I'm tired. Really tired.

~Zel

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He doesn't understand - He'll never be able to understand. He can't love me, and I won't let him. Loving me will just end up ruining him - I need to protect him. So, I'm giving back every kiss, every touch, every look, and every word. I can't let him do this for me - he's sacrificing his life for me, but I don't want him to - I just want him to be free of me and my troubles. He shouldn't always have to be taking care of me. I'm simply a charity case to him.

So, as he kisses my forehead and swears that we'll be able to have a wonderful life together and that we'll be able to have a new beginning, I screw my eyes shut tightly and feel the tears well up in my eyes. There's no way that he's going to be able to do that for someone as messed up and imperfect as myself.

Hearing him talk about our future makes me falter slightly in my resolve to stay away from him. I think he knows it's my weakness - actually thinking that someone will want to be with me, love me, and have a family with me.

He knows me too well. Knows how much I desperately want that wonderful house and three kids with a big fluffy dog lying by the fire.

I break out of his embrace, quickly running away. Running - it's what I do best sometimes. With my back turned to him, I'm able to release my tears as they pour out of my eyes quickly, streaking down my cheeks. Folding my arms over my chest, I hope he doesn't follow me, even when I know he will.

He chases after me, and, although my heart leaps because he does, I shove the thought away. He can't love me. I won't let him. I'll just end up hurting him in the end.

"Link, I'm sorry," I'm able to get out. "I need you to go - I'm supposed to be alone. Please, just leave me alone. Stop chasing after me. Give me up." I hate how my voice cracks with almost every phrase so I mentally beg him to just leave me alone. I don't want him to see me like this. I have to be there for everyone else in my life, and I push away the one person I have who wants to be there for me. My throat feels like it's closing up, and I feel sick to my stomach - like I'm about to retch.

He just can't give up, and it causes my heart to break for him. I know he's going to leave me eventually, and I don't want to stick around to watch it happen.

"Zelda!" he calls my name out several times along with three words that make my heart splinter.

I. Love. You.

I hate those words. I hate you. Just leave me alone and let me be miserable in peace.

Maybe one day he'll finally leave me alone, but I'll run, hide, and cry while I can, hoping that one day his grasp on me will finally weaken, and he'll just let me go.