Scared (Liam Payne)

Chapter 13

Those words are still stuck in my head.

Get the fuck out of my house.

Why did I have to go off on him.

I tried to text him but that would be a stupid idea. I'm mad at myself for saying all these stupid things. I wouldn't be in this mess right now. I hate everything right now. But the one thing is I don't want to forgive Liam. Nope, I think I'm going to be stupid doing that. Well maybe I should apologize to him. No Saige don't do that.

It's already been days later since the whole reckless party. I've been avoiding Liam for sometime now but he's trying to keep his distance too.

I've been sitting at lunch with Cassidy and Perrie. Seeing Perrie makes me think about how she laying on that bed with Zayn.

Perrie looked terrified for some reason. She was pale and she was shaking.

"Holy shit that party went crazy." Cassidy asked.

I wonder how people knew about the party and how they crashed it.

"I got totally wasted there." Cassidy said with a giggle.

"But you and Ashton kissed." She nudged me and smiled.

I blushed a little.

With my quiet voice, "It's nothing."

"Such a lie, you enjoyed it. So Perrie did you enjoy the party because after everyone came you started to disappear.

Perrie was just sitting there.

"Are you ok?" I asked.

She left the table as fast as she can.

"I hope she's going to be ok." I said to Cassidy.

"I hope she will be too."

"Should we check on her?"

"No I think she just needs some privacy." She was right and she didn't seem like talking to anyone.

"Ashton told me that you were his first kiss." She startes to smile again.

"I can tell he was your first kiss too." Well I guess Liam didn't really count.

"So how did your first kiss go?" She was so desperate to know.

I was kinda nervous to answer the question.

"It was actually..." All I remember is that I didn't feel anything. No emotion. Ashton is sweet and cute but for some reason I'm not really into him.

"It was beautiful." Of course I lied.

"That's good. Most first kiss are not that even good, mine wasn't that good. It's like the first time having sex, it wasn't that good either."

I was disturbed. "You had sex?"

"Yeah, he was probably my third boyfriend and I loved him. So we decided to do it but even though I loved him I felt nothing."

I never took Cassidy as a person to get drunk or have sex. Ew.

Perrie comes back and sits down.

"Are you ok?" Cassidy asks.

Perrie still looked like she didn't want to talk. "Yeah." That was probably her last word she would probably say today.

The bell rung and Perrie walked fast to her next class.

I was walking to my next class and then Ashton came up to me.

"Hey Saige can I ask you something?" He had that cute smile again.

"Yeah."

"Well..." He grabbed my wrist and took me outside. There was less people out here, so I guess this conversation was private.