Scared (Liam Payne)

Chapter 19

The only thing that kept my room from being total darkness was the lamp by my nightstand. Everything was spinning in my head, Ashton, the accident, and Liam.

It seemed like forever since I saw Ashton I just had to check on him to see if he was ok.

Without even thinking I just got out of bed and tried to find his room. This was probably against the rules but I don't care.

I look through bedroom windows to see if he was in one of them. It was dark in every room so it made it harder to see the person in them.

Luckily I finally spot him and I was so happy I did.

I walked into his room and closed the door softly. He looked so peaceful while he sleep.

But not as peaceful as Liam.

Shut up Saige you are mad at him.

Ashton was probably sleeping but I wanted to talk to him. I didn't want to be rude but I need to see if he was ok so I shook him awake.

He rubbed his eyes like he was imagining. "Saige, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be getting rest?" He was surprised.

"Yea, but I was worried about you. I haven't seen you for a while." I sit on the edge of his bed.

He was trying to sit up straight. "Ashton don't. Just relax."

"I just miss you." He closed his eyes, I don't think he meant to say that.

"I miss you too." I acknowledge.

His hand push a strain of my hair back. Then his finger trace my lips, his eyes turned from excited to worry.

"There some cuts on your lips."

"I know, that car accident did a damage on us." His thumb started to rub my cheek.

We didn't say anything else and just stared at each other. As I knew this was coming, he leans in. His lips were on mine, nothing. Just nothing. I only kissed him back to get Liam out of my head even though it is hard to. What the hell is wrong with me?

Everytime I kiss Ashton, my mind goes to Liam. How he makes my heart beat faster then lightning, how he tries to spend time with me even though I have difficulties, and how when we cuddle I feel his arms wrap around me making me go insane.

Ashton broke the kiss. "I think you should get to bed, you need rest."

"I had enough rest besides I'm going home tomorrow. Thank god, I am done with hospital food." I laughed and he laughed with me.

I shrug. "Ok I'll go to sleep."

Ashton kissed me one last time. "Goodnight Saige."

When I get to my room it was hard to sleep. I didn't want to go to bed with my mind racing about everything. I finally got to talk to Ashton and he was ok. I miss him, I miss him so much. I miss Liam.

Wait what? I don't miss Liam, I miss... Liam. I really do miss him. But why?

*****

While my mom signed me out of this horrible hospital, I went to visit Ashton.

I told him I was leaving and he told me that he would be returning home soon. He gave me a kiss goodbye but still nothing.

When I got home all I just want to do is sleep on my bed since I got the lack of sleep by over thinking too much about Liam. But surprisingly people were here to give me a cake.

"Welcome home Saige." My dad hug me.

"I miss you daddy." I smile.

My grandmother was still here which made me really happy, including Perrie and Cassidy.