Fixing the broken boy {Briam}

Chapter Thirty-nine

Liam's Pov

I woke up and wiped my eyes, I got up and looked in the mirror in my room and saw dry tears on my cheeks. The memory of Brett screaming at me flashed back in my head, Playing over and over and over. Memory's of my dad hitting and kicking me came back, I started to cry again. I didn't want to come out of my room but I knew I had to. For my baby. I got up and Opened my door and went to the baby's room, I picked Joey up and he smiled at me and I smiled at him. I changed his diaper and Laid him back in his crib, I walked to Brett's door and knocked on it. I heard him move in his bed.

"Go feed the baby," I said

I walked back to my room and made a decision, I'm ending it all this evening. I cant deal with all of this anymore, The constant reminder that I'm weak. That no matter what Theo and Scott did to my dad I can never get away from him. The feeling that he is still here. I tried to live for my baby, For Brett. For Scott, For the pack but I just can't take it. He baby would just have to live with no mom. He heard a knock on his door. It's Scott.

"Liam please come eat, You haven't eaten since yesterday. We are worried" He said

"I'm not hungry," I said

"Okay, If you get hungry there is food in the microwave," He said

"k," I said

I heard Scott go down the stairs, I got up and went in my backpack and got went to my bathroom and grabbed a shaver that Brett left in my room and took it apart. I grabbed the blade in between my fingers and stared at it, I told myself that I would stop this but I couldn't I can't take it. I put the blade to my arm and drugged it across make a line, I watched the crimson red seep from the cut. I move over to the door closing it and locking it, I sat in front of the tub and turned on the water watching the blood drop into the water. I only wanted to make one cut but need more. I drugged it across my arm 14 more times I watched it bleed knowing that it is going to heal. How bad I wished I had wolfsbane right now, I started to feel dizzy so I washed the blood off my arm. It healed but I still felt dizzy, I unlocked the bathroom door and stumbled into my room. I got on my bed and closed my eye and feel to sleep.

                                                       (Time skip to this evening)

I woke up and wiped my eyes, It's time. I listened to make sure no one was in the hallway. When I didn't hear anyone I open my door and went to the baby's room. I saw the baby laying in his crib smiling at the roof, I picked him up and kissed his forehead.

"Hi baby boy, I hope you know mommy and daddy love you. Today might be the last day you see mommy, But its okay dad is still going to be here for you. I love you so much, Please never make the decision that I'm about to make. Everyone loves you, I love you so so much. I sorry" I said letting the tears fall

the baby frowned at me and grabbed my finger, I kissed his forehead and laid back in his crib. I tried to move my finger out of his hand but he wouldn't let it go.

"Please let my finger go," I said

to my surprise he let go, I looked at him and saw a tear roll down his cheek. I wiped it away and kissed his cheek saying one more goodbye before going to my room. I went to my bathroom an locked the door, I grabbed the blade from under my sink and Rolled up my shirt sleeves. He made a deep cut on his arm that wouldn't heal. He watched the crimson red blood come from out of the cut at a quick pace, He got dizzy and his body fell to the ground with a loud thump.

"So this is it, After all of this, you are still weak. You should have let your dad kill that night he was chocking you" He said to himself

He heard a knock on the door but was too dizzy and tired to do anything, The person busted through the door with all their might. The person kneeled beside me and pulled me into their arms and onto their lap, I smiled. At less, I get to die knowing someone tried to save me.

"Sorry," I said before blacking out

my heart was still beating, The person can save me if they hurried to the hospital. But until that happened. I knew it. I know that I'm falling.