avneil ff:kyun main jaagoon

neil's emotions

This is my ff, hope you like it.

The lines in black colour are for what Neel is thinking and speaking, " " ones are for song and ' ' is for what author is saying or describing. the brackets  are the translation of hindi sentences

Neel's POV(of same night)

'Neel comes to his room with the support of his parents. They made him lay on the bed.'

Shweta spills venom through her words "kya haalt kar di hai use "(what condition has ) she winces " ladki ne mere bechare tillu ki "(she done of my poor tillu) she was about to say more but her husband cuts her in between and says "Chalo shweta ji neel ko aaram karne do"(lets go Shweta ji, let neel rest)

'She nods but was unwilling to leave her son. But eventually went with her husband. As soon as Neel hears the sound of closing door, his eyes opens, they were bloodshot red from crying. He stands up and walks near the window and looks at the moon. He recalls what scene was going on when he and his police force had come to his house.'

"Tune jo na kaha, mein woh sunta raha
Khamaka bewaja khwaab buntha raha
Mmmm mmm mmmmmm... mmm mmmm"

How could I have thought that you and ali were having affair;even for some time. How could have I doubted you. I know that Ali loves you but you never said it. Never. Then how could I

'He breaks down and could not complete his sentence further. He was now sitting on the floor with his legs folded and tightly pressed to his chest, his head on his knees and was crying too. He got his face red too due to continuous crying.'

Rhea kyo kiya tumne ye. Avni aur mera saath kyo kiya ye. Bhaag gai thi na tum shaadi se aur pyaar bhi nhi karti thi mujhe; bas obsession tha tumhe vo bhi bahut pehle over ho gaya tha. Phir kyo hume alag karne ki koshish ki. Kyo mujhe se avni ko dur karne ki sazish ki. Aisa kya cheen liya tha meri avni ne jo tum itni neeche gir gai ki apni hi behen ko badnaam kiya tumne. Kuch nhi cheena tha usne, vo liya jo uska tha. How could you stoop so low. Disgusting. Because of you only hum itne dur ho gai hai. I promised her ki me uska saath dunga aur use kabhi akela nhi chodonga but I couldn't fulfil my promise. Humari duriya kam honeki bajae aur jyada bar gai hai. Pata nhi maaf bhi karegi bhi avni ya nhi. Jo mene kiya h usse to vo mera chehra bhi dekhna na pasand kare.(rhea why did you do this. why did you so this with me and avni. you ran away from the marriage and you didnt even love me; it was obsession which was over long ago. then why did you try to separate us. why did you conspire to separate us. what have my avni stolen from you that you stoop so low that you try to defame your sister. she hasnt stolen anything, she has just taken what was her's. How could you stoop so low. Disgusting. Because of you only we are so far. i promised her that i will support her and will never leave her alone but i couldnt fulfil my promise. our differences got more instead of getting less. dont know whether she will forgive me or not. after what i have done she wont like to see my face )

"Tune jo na kaha, mein woh sunta raha
Khamaka bewaja khwaab buntha raha
Jaane kiski humein lag gayi hai nazar
Is shehar mein na apna tikana raha
Durr chahat se mein apni chalta raha
Khamaka bewaja khwaab buntha raha"

Kitna dard ho rha tha dil me jab sab avni ko blame kar rhe the. Dono waqt me kuch nhi kar pa rha tha. Pehle me shock me chala gaya tha ki ye sab kya ho rha h, meri avni ke itne paas ali kyo h. Paralyse sa ho gaya tha. Aur saath me jealous bhi feel kar raha tha; isliye avni ko bacha nhi paya. Jaanta ho ye koi excuse nhi h but jealousy me insaan kuch bhi kar deta h aur use pata hi nhi chalta ki vo sahi kar rha h ya nhi. man kar rha tha ki ali ka encounter kar do. Par kuch kar nhi pa rha tha;(my heart was paining when evryone was blaming avni. both the time i wasnt able to do anything. firstly i went in shock that what was happening, why was ali standing so close to my avni. i was kidda paralyse. plus i was feeling jealous; so i couldnt able to save avni. i know it is not an excuse but in jealousy person do anything and didnt know whether he is doing right or wrong. i wanted to do ali's encounter but couldnt do it  )

"Dard pehle se hai zyaada, khud se phir yeh kiya wada
Khamosh nazrein rahe bezuban
Hmmmm...mmm...mmmm...."

Dusri baar bhi kuch nhi kar paya. Sab kuch aur jyada bigad gaya jab me aaya use rhea ke saath. Kaise baatata ki ye sab mera plan h tumhe pure and innocent prove karne ke liye wifey. Kaise?(second time also i cant be able to do anything. the situation got more worse when i came with that rhea. how could have i told you that it was my plan to prove you pure and innocent wifely. how?)

'Throughtout he was crying continuously.'

Par ab mujhe dar lag rha h ki kahi tumhe innocent prove karne ke chakkar me me tumhe kho to nhi dunda? Kyoki diya h mene tumhe dard, vo kiya unjaaneme jo tumhare dad ne tumhari aisha ma ke saath kiya tha. Me nhi kho sakta tumhe avni. I love you avni. Maaf kardena mujhe. (now i am getting afraid that in the process of proving you innocent i might lose you. because i have given you pain, unintentionally i done what your father have done with your aisha ma. i cant lose you avni. i love you. forgive me please)

"Apno phele si baatein hai, bolo tho lab thar tharatein hai
Raaz yeh dil ka, na ho bayaan
Ho gaya ke aasar koi hum pe nayi
Humsafar mein tho hai humsafar hai nayi
Durr jatha raha, paas aatha raha
Khamaka bewaja khwaab buntha raha
Hmmm...mmm...mmmmm..."

Bas ab kal subha ka intezaar h. Phir sab kuch theek ho jaega. Rhea ki asliat sabke saamne aa jaegi. (now the wait is for tomorrow. then everything will be fine. Rhea's true colours will be infront of everyone)

'As he says this he wipes off his tears and stands up. He goes near the dressing mirror and

says' rhea jo dard tumne avni ko diye h, jo aasu uski aakho me aae h unsab ka hisaab kal me tumse le kar rakhonga and that to with interest (rhea the pain you gave her, the tears which came in her eyes, you have to pay for it and that too with interest, and i will make sure of it )

' he was in angry look and then he punched the mirror. Then he removes his hand from mirror and places on the wall adjacent to it. With that he moves his other hand over his hair and says '

I hope avni theek ho abhi, I know she is strong to vo kuch galat nhi karegi apne saath. jab bhi to nhi sakta me uske paas. Pata nhi konse room me h, shayad dad ko pata ho. But kya vo mera chehra dekhna bhi pasand karegi agar dad ne mujhe bata bhi diya? After all mene uske saath bahut bura kiya h. I think subha baat karonga me, jab me use innocent prove kar donga sabke saamne. Tab shayad vo mujhe maaf karde. Aur agar nhi kiya to? To shayad me uski nafrat hi derserve karta ho pyaar nhi (I hope avni is fine now, i know she is strong and won't do anything wrong with herself. i cant even go to her, dont know in which room she will be, maybe dad know? but will she like to see my face if dad told me too? after all i have done so wrong with her. i think i will talk to her in morning after i have proved her innocent in front of everyone. then maybe she will forgive me. what if she doesn't? then i deserve her hatred not love )

'as he says the last line a tear fell off his eye

his phones messsge ringtone 's sound echos in the room.'

DD ka messsge hoga check karta hu.(it will be DD's message)

'He goes and checks his phone'

Kaam ho gaya sir, aap so jaie sab theek ho jaega. 'the message says'(the work is done sir, you go and sleep, everything will be fine)

Thank you, 'neel typed and send the message'

Sona chahiye mujhe, kal bahut kuch karna h (i should sleep now, tomorrow i have to do so much)

'He goes to the bed and lies down and tires to sleep. He gets sleep not because he was tired or exhaust but because he wanted to dream him and his avni in his arms after the confession of both the things, truth and their love. He wants to dream his lady love so sleep also comes to him.'

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This is my avneil ff. Hope you guys like this, if yes don't forget to comment down below please. And if no then also comment to share your view.

Sorry for any grammatical error or any other error.

Next chapter will be what happened in the morning .

Thank you for reading

Love you all

Mehak