pins and Needles

Stranger

He welcomed me with a smile and he was so hot he was the type of guy who had tanned skin,blue eyes and dark messy hair that looked good no matter what.I was lost in though yet again But was snapped back to reality when he waved his hand in front of my face I jumped to this and fell over,he tried to save me but ended falling over landing on top of me I saw the position we were in and I turned bright red I wondered what to think."you're cute"my jaw dropped now my face was  crimson red and I've never been so embarrassed in my life he suddenly laught I said what's so funny he said barely being able to get his words out your face is so red he got of and held out a hand by this point in time I was ready to cash out the door but my body wouldn't let me it was like my mind was saying one thing but my body was saying another. He suddenly grabbed my hand and lead me to a bed room I start panicking trying to get out his grip he looked at me with worried eyes,I've never seen some one look at me that way. I know he wasn't going to hurt me but my body automatically goes in to self defence and now I'm in a corner cowaring like a baby.

Wow way to show my self up."Are u okay,you must have gone through a lot to act like that" I burst out in tears I can't help in,I feel my danty  body get ingulffed in a warm inbrace by him I burry my head in the crook of his neck he is a bit taken back by my actions but he suddenly relaxes I don't know what this feeling is but I've never felt this way before,I trust him.he picked me up as he can clearly see I am in able to stand and I black out.I wake up in what looked like a hospital I panic at the fact they might have called my mum suddenly doctors and nurses rush in and start drowning me in questions I ignore them but some thing catches my eyes the last person I saw before I came here not that I remember that.He starts having a go at all the nurses and doctors for consuming me in questions,they all leave but one I ask what happened to me and they sigh it's like they are scared to tell me I ask again getting a reply this time."You fainted from blood loss,you are searvely under weight and damage to your head ribs and shoulder bone, who or what did this to you".

I reply with a blank expression."you can visibly see your bones this is not okay this is abuse"the doctor said with a concerned expression I replied with a look that said I'm not going to tell you,then the boy whom I haven't even got his name yet do we over and says in a low tone "They not gonna hurt you, you can tell them " . I say barely a whisper "I can't you won't understand " To my suprise they both heard me and their expressions say half shock and half what do you mean.It was and awkward silence until the doctor brakes it "If you won't tell me I'll have to tell your parents to come pick you up" Suddenly I burst out crying and screaming "No you don't under stand please don't call them then I'll have to move again" I suddenly freeze up and black out from anxiety I hear the doctor ask the boy if he knows what  I'm on about he says nopeopleng about but I turn any way of communication of in body and shut down.I can't take this anymore I want to die.Im too broken for anyone to fix there's no point in trying. I wake up 10 mins later to see no one in the room but him.

He jults up to my side to ask if I'm okay I reply with a "yes" so quiet I couldn't hear myself say that but he heard and said "Don't lie to me I care and I know we have only just met but I feel like I could trust you I'm sure you feel the same" I smile at how honest he's being and the thing is I do feel the same but I can't tell him anything about my past because he will think I'm a slut and he will hate me, I snapped back to reality when he said "Does you acting like I was gonna rape you relate to your parents" My eyes widened and I burst out in tears he tries to comfort me but it doesn't work I eventually farm down and he asked if I would tell him what has happened to me I replied with "If I told you,you would hate me so I can't "his face is covered in worry and he keeps reassuring me but I can't I just can't I don't need anyone else to want me gone from this world the doctor comes to the door way and stops he opens his mouth and says "I've called your parents they are coming to get you " .

I turn pale and feel like I'm gonna throw up the boy rushed to me but I collapse and begged the boy to save me from them I can't go back I can't live like that it's killing me on the inside. The doctor sees how I'm reacting and asked me one more time what happened to me I give up I'm gonna die any way I tell home everything from the start he was horrified and so was the boy the doctor said my mum's boyfriend would be arrested for child abuse ment and then he walked out. I start to cry I can't hold my emotions any more I suddenly feel a warm gentle touch on my hand.
"I know you hate me it's fine I'm used to it you can go don't feel sorry about it there's no need I'm gonna die any way.
He's taken back by this and replied with "I'm not leaving you and I don't hate you why would I" 
"Because you think I'm some sort of slut because of what he did to me "
"No I don't that doesn't matter I want to help you,you need someone"
"I'm too broken for any one to fix..."