It's Twisted

Chance to Fight

Chances.

That's the only thing racing through my brain, when I get home the next afternoon. It's Friday, which means I had survived the hell of classes with nothing but this two day break to look forward to.

Tugging my bag up my shoulder, I walk through the front door and straight to the pantry to get something to eat.

I have an internal debate on if I'll go to a party I overheard some girls talking about in class. Jared and I have been fighting a lot and he's usually my ticket into parties on and off campus so I'll have to work up the nerve to go stag. I bite into an Oreo.

All I got from eavesdropping was that it's next Friday and they couldn't decide what to wear. I don't really think too much into their conversation, but at least I had that to look forward to if I start feeling a little down next weekend.

Shrugging the party off, I let my mind wonder to Ben. I think it's time to come clean to Halley. I should've told her how I felt the second I seen them together. She's clearly starting to develop real feelings for him and I can't keep doing this to my best friend. It's not me.

I have accepted that Ben might pick Halley, and on the bright side if Ben chooses Halley, she doesn't gets hurt. We just forget things ever happened and never tell a soul.

Now, on the other hand, he could choose me. The con to that pro is that friendships could be ruined, possibly. Halley wouldn't want to look me in the eyes, ever again but could I blame her? Not at all. I would like to think we could get through anything considering how long we've been friends but I'm not so sure. I would hate me. Maybe after I explain I'll have a fighting chance. I really hope so anyway.

Jared is obviously on the non-friend list right now but who's to say that couldn't change? Anything is possible with him but if he found out about Ben I'm not sure he would ever forgive me.

These relationships will take more than time to fix. My mom used to say, "Mistakes are cuts. What you do after making them needs to involve a bandaid." To fix the mess I've made... I know I'm going to need a water proof one.

If I work hard enough could I win my friends over? Even better question, will I really keep this secret from them if Ben chooses Halley?

I know there is some girl out there who understands. Who knows that if someone you really admired came to you and said there's a possibility we could work it out, I'm positive she would agree in a heartbeat... right? Where's the book on this? Movie? Something to give me guidance.

My thoughts were interrupted by the door bell ringing and I had to blink a few times to get out of my head and back to reality.

The ringing stopped when I swung the door open to a smirking Ben, a flower making itself cozy between his fingers.

I gave him a muttered 'hey' before he stepped into the house, shut the door behind him, and smashed his face to mine.

As usual his lips were undeniably soft, sweet- and for a moment I forgot about the risky business I am making myself go through, when I slug my arms around his neck and tangled my fingers into the his hair- his smooth welcoming hair. Our lips moved to an unknown rhythm and he positioned his arms around my waist

He pulled back, his teeth showing, as he lightly ran his finger through some of my stray pieces of hair.

"You make my life so hard."

I couldn't keep the confusion from creeping up on me. "Is that a bad thing?" I ran my hands through his hair one last time.

"No, it's actually a very good thing." He let his arms move from around my waist. We both looked down and noticed the flower that had been in my hand on the floor. I guess I ditched it when his hair started calling my name.