Adamantine

-7-Holding on

A/N yo waddup its yo grill author nim.

I AM NOT O K A Y .. THE WAR IS LIT AF KO KO BOP AND POWER IS LIT AF. EXO IS LIT AF
I AM ALSO VERY SORRY I DIDN'T UPDATE I FEEL LIKE SHIT BC OF THAT EVEN THO LIKE 5 PPL READ THIS STORY IM STILL VERY THANKFUL <3 TY <3 ILY <3

Me and Chanyeol haven't really talked ever since that day. It's been a 2 weeks and everyone is talking about the upcoming Halloween party Jongdae is hosting at his place.
I'm still not sure what to do, I want to come, but Chanyeol will definitely be there and I want to avoid that guy as much as possible. Not that I feel guilty for not giving him a chance or anything..

Teachers are giving us too much work. For the upcoming chemistry lesson, we were supposed to come up with a project, and Kyungsoo, being my partner of now 2 and a half months, knows, that chemistry isn't really my style. Mr. Chungman is always giving me extra work because I skip his classes, and it's annoying. Why can't the old man just get the hint that I don't like his stupid class...

Throughout the day I would catch at least 20 secret glances from Chanyeol. I may or may not be catching him so many times because, I find myself looking at him for no reason. And every time I caught him, he would look at Baekhyun like a lost little puppy.

By now, all of us were at the cafeteria, Jessie and Liz were sitting besides each other, while I was playing with my food across them. Despite the table being and huge rectangular shaped, that could suffice very well for 8 people, we always sat down by 2 connected tables, where EXO would sit. Being with those dorks became our kind of an everyday chore.
Besides some flirtatious remarks dropped between us here, and there, we were all getting along quite well. Including Yixing, but excluding Chanyeol.

"(Y/N)! Are you listening to me even?" I blink a few times and try to regain my lost composure. "O-oh... Sorry, what were you saying?" Jessie squints her eyes, hiding her eyeliner a bit and groans. "I was saying that maybe... I kind of think that... I like Kris?" I tilt my head in confusion and put a cucumber slice in my mouth "Nice, hope you guys get together." I respond, not amused, and the girls exchange looks between each other. "What's up with you these pas few weeks? You seem air headed..." Jessie furrows her eyebrows in concern and stays like that for good 10 seconds. Before I decided on my answer and opened my mouth to speak a loud thud was heard on my right side. "Whats up guys?" Baekhyun had plopped himself besides me,  meanwhile the rest of Exo arrive to sit with us. I want to thank them for giving me the perfect shot to dodge the question, but the thought of being grateful flew out the window once I spot a familiar figure sit on my left, back facing me. His now dark hair is intriguing me, he sitting on my left side chatting up his friends. Chanyeol...

To say I felt conflicted was a bit too gentle. I was ripped between emotions. Anger, disappointment, regret, anxiety, even compassion, were boiling my insides. I felt a strong urge to rip out my own lungs that felt suffocating to me. I loathe the way he makes me feel so vulnerable, and yet also, ready to face the world head on.

"(Y/n) what's with you, huh?" Baekhyun pushes his face in my vision. My focus from the table went to Baekhyun's hand which was now placed just above my right knee. He must really be concerned I guess?

By now everyone's eyes were on me and I panicked. "W-what? N-o, everything is fine." I stuttered at least 4 times in that on sentence, good job (Y/n).
Baekhyun's hand slightly rubs my leg in reassurance and from the sheer panic I jumped out of my skin. Baekhyun, noticing me flinching put his hand on my shoulder. Getting close to my ear, the brunette speaks up "I'm sorry if I freaked you out. Tell me if anything is wrong." he leans outwards and I look at him, trying to suppress the urge to lift the corners of my mouth. "Okay?" I nod "Okay."  Chanyeol leans in closer, him being a whole head taller than me he talks over me. Literally. "Yo Baek, the hell dude?" "What, Chan?" "Why were you trying so hard just now?" glancing at Chanyeol in disbelief I get up and climb over the bench. "I'll just go. I'll meet you Jessie after school right?" "Y-yeah, but--" I pick up my backpack "Okay well, see ya." I walk away from the table, turning some heads as I go.