Adamantine

-8- Do you think so?

"why are you here?" that voice that can cut me, that voice that can make my insides hollow but I'd still feel completely full. Those fucking vocal chords that can strip me down to my own soul, but not give anything in return.

"I was just leaving." Chanyeol glances at Kyungsoo and then back at me when I was struggling with the zipper of my bag. "(Y/N), we have to talk. What is happening between you two? Are you guys secretly dating? Kyungsoo, I thought you were my friend?" I put the bag over my shoulder and look at Chanyeol in disbelief  "What the fuck? What the fuck is your problem Park Chanyeol? Am I not allowed to study with my friend? And what fucking right do you have to talk to Kyungsoo like that?" Chanyeol's face softens drastically from the cold stone expression he just had. "Yeah, what do you want Chanyeol?" Kyungsoo stands up, his arms on his sides, obviously ticked off by Chanyeol's unneeded sudden outburst. " Aissh... I'm an idiot... I wanted to talk to you D.O..." I get the message and quickly brush past the tall male to reach my jacket and shoes. "Okay, you guys can talk when I leave." I struggle with the laces of my sneakers while 2 sets if eyes were glued on my form. "Can I talk to you, (Y/n)?" I sight, not knowing what to say. "I think it's best if she didn't talk to you right now actually." I thank the gods for Do Kyungsoo. Now it's Chanyeol who lets out a sight. With that I leave the apartment complex. 

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"What the hell does he want from me anyway. We're not even friends, yet he's acting like I belong to him..." I murmur to myself whilst walking down the street. Why is it always like this huh?  . You find a guy you think might be a cool person, but all he does is start manipulating you or even worse - use you.
Baekhyun, Jongdae, Jongin and Kyungsoo definitely are the nicest among the whole group. Well that's probably cause I've been hanging out with them the most. Suho is generally very quiet. Tao almost never comes to school. I can't even mention Luhan's name otherwise Liz will go full crazy on me and Jessie. 

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"(Y/n), I saw your mom today." Jessie speaks up, uncomfortable and I can see it through the way she avoids my eye contact and the way her leg is perked up a bit too much. "Oh...? What'd she say? Where did you see her?" I sit up on Jessie's bed and wait till the brunette sits besides me to explain what she has exactly in store for me.
"Well, for starters, she gave you this letter, and said she's been getting back on her own two feet again." I scoff in disbelief, that liar. Handing me the letter I notice it wasn't even opened. At least she had some respect for my privacy, though the weird stamp and initials are weird. I think I've seen the symbol before. It's a pentagon with a crown over it. Below the pentagon it says "SAINT" I'm really confused as to what it might be. "She also said your father wanted to visit you, but you weren't home so he left. She actually caught me in a supermarket, though it's weird she had that letter in her purse." I try to come up with a logical explanation as to why would, Honglee (Yuko), my father, come to visit me after so many years of no contact? And that whole incident a while back at Jongdae's party with those weird men thinking I owed them money because of my dad?

"(Y/N)! What's up, why are you so quiet?" I gather my scrambled thoughts and manage to reply with an "I'm fine".  "What if this letter is connected with my dad?" I ask. "I don't think so, this may be just like a letter saying you won a toaster or something." I chuckle "Damn, I'd love to have a toaster." "Only one way to find out (y/n). Open it." I shake my head side to side. "I don't want to know, I finally got my mom out of the picture I don't want him to ruin my life again". Jessie puts her arm around me and squeezes me closer. "It's okay, just open it when you are ready, I'll be here for you." I take her words and breathe them in. "I hope so".