lies ↬ fillie

three

— heartbreak.

the bell rings, signaling for lunch. about time. i was starving. i was late waking up this morning - as usual - and didn't get to grab a banana. you'd think i'd at least have time to grab a banana, right? wrong. that's how late i was.

i walk through the crowded hallways, past smooching couples and scolding teachers. it smelt slightly like weed. ah, high school. gotta love it. couldn't wait until i was out of this hell hole. college equals freedom. from my parents, at least.

i arrive in the lunch room. it smelled like pizza. i scrunch my nose in disgust. i hated pizza more than i hated algebraic equations. lunchbag in hand, i made my way over to our booth. i stopped short right before i came upon the booth, confused. why was that blond girl from yesterday at our booth? our booth meant finn and i's booth, not finn, millie, and angel girl's booth.

i continued to the booth, preparing myself for anything to come. i take a calm, collected breath as i arrive. i smile genuinely at finn, my smile slightly faltering as i glance at angel girl.

"millie! this is iris. she's new. she's in my math class, you know, the one right before this period. with mr. clarke?" while finn says this to me, his hands fly around in front of his face making unreadable gestures.

i nod in acknowledgement.

iris just smiles. she's even more pretty when she smiles. much prettier than me. this is not fair. i'm losing a game that hasn't even begun.

i sit down across from iris and finn, grudgingly pulling out my sandwhich. or, what i thought was my sandwhich. apparently ava and i's lunches got mixed up, because i now i had pizza and ava probably had...well, my sandwhich.

i mentally bang my head against the table.

could this day get any worse?

"so, finnlard. are you-"

i was interrupted by a girly giggle. it sounded like the little tehe giggles that belong to stereotypical flirts. it was rather disgusting to hear, and i decided right then and there i never wanted to hear any demonic sound like that again.

i lifted my head from my...i mean ava's pizza. iris was giggling that little demonic giggle as finn whispered something in her ear. i looked at finn. iris. finn again. iris.

seriously?

i didn't think i said that out loud, but by the small look i got from iris, maybe i did.

i threw my pizza down, making a thwomp as it hit the table. it was quieter than i had liked it to be, but, it was effective enough to the point where iris and - finally - finn looked at me.

"well, i'm going to go to the bathroom. adios."

i got up from the booth. i took a quick glance at the clock and-

wait, i had only been here for seven minutes?

i walked out of the cafeteria, as calmly and quickly as i could. i shoved open the doors, barely missing the custodian on one of his daily trips in the hallway.

"hello mr. harbour. how's sara?" i slowed down.

"just fine, millie. how's finn?"

wait, did i forget to mention that mr. harbour is one of my closest friends? well, he is. one step below finn, though he's the only one that knows a secret finn doesn't.

"i...don't want to talk about it. later davido." i sped up again to the quick pace i was at before. i've got to get out of here, now.

i quickened my pace to a jog, passing the classrooms filled with teachers passing out useless geometry tests and girls gossiping about the latest vogue edition.

i reached the front doors.

i pushed one open, running down the concrete stairs.

i run pass speeding cars and beeping trucks all the way home.

i love you day and night finn, and what do i get? heartbreak.

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