excerpts from a book i'll never write

i learned from you

the first time you heard the word love, what did you think? if you're like me, you first heard the word when you were little and didn't think much of it since your parents used it a lot. if you were like me, you just added that word to your mental dictionary of words you were learning.

it wasn't until i met you that i truly knew what love meant. love meant "have you eaten today?". love meant "here, take my jacket". love meant "you can call/text/talk to me any time you want". love meant that i would drop anything and everything for you if i could.

it wasn't until after i lost you i knew that love was a synonym to anger, distrust, disappointment, yearning, pain, sadness along with so many others.

it wasn't until you came and went as you pleased that i actually learned.

-an excerpt from a book i'll never write