excerpts from a book i'll never write

someday

some days i wish we never met. because maybe if we hadn't have met, things wouldn't be the way they are now. maybe i wouldn't be feeling like shit constantly because i'm reminded of how much you hate me. there hasn't been a day where i haven't wished that you were out of my life permanently.

i wish i didn't have memories of you left in my head like scars. you've made your fucking mark and i can't get rid of it no matter how much i've fucking tried. you don't fucking leave and i'm so tired of seeing you every single god damn fucking day.

-an excerpt from a book i'll never write