excerpts from a book i'll never write

you said goodbye

you left me so easily, i often wonder what would have happened if i were the one who had left you. you left so abruptly, i often think of you as a lightning strike, leaving chaos for those nearby and curiosity for those in the distance.

there are days where all i can think about is you and i wonder what would have happened if i had just said nothing. those days are the worst, i never leave my bed.

i wonder if you still care about me. i wonder if you miss me like i miss you. i wonder if you're doing better without me. i wonder if i even cross your mind at this point

-an excerpt from a book i'll never write