Y/N POV
I'm trapped. I'm trapped inside this cage that is all about darkness. I'm not free. I was never free. If you're thinking, what kind of free? I mean by, yes I am free like I can go wherever I want but not that far, do whatever I want but I have limits. But, I'm not free on the inside.
This sounds cliche but every fucking day, I wear a fucking smile so people will think I'm happy. Hell no, I'm not happy, I was never happy.
Inside, I'm all alone, scared, trapped, locked in a cage that no matter how much I try to escape, it always finds the way to put me back and lock me in. Everywhere there's darkness. I see no glimpse of daylight. To me, everything is a blur. Everything is black and white.
No matter how much I try to break free, I can't, I want to break free. (A/N: get it? xD)
Yes, I have everything, I have all the things I have wanted, but really, it's not enough. I sound selfish but it's the truth. Money can't buy the happiness I need. For concerts yes it can give you happiness.
What I mean by happiness is freedom. I want to free. Being able to do, and go wherever I want with no limits.
The thing is, I hate myself really. I hate how I smile, laugh, cry, everything about me.
I always question myself, why was I even born? What's the purpose? (A/N: *Jack's voice (Leo): Life is a gift, I don't intend on wasting it.)
I hate how I stand out, how I always attract attention, how people know I exist. How everyone knows me. I hate it. I just wanna sleep forever.
That is until I met him.
Gerard Arthur Way. He gave me happiness. He gave me a reason to live. Everything he does makes me happy. I love how he laughs, smiles at people, I mostly love his eyes. It's a beautiful brown hazel eyes that shines in daylight. Whenever I see him, I feel happiness surround me. My heart melts. I'm glad I met him.
He's everything to me.
His music speaks to me. Gives me life. Gives me reason to believe to carry on.
But,
That was all in the past. Gerard Arthur Way, lead singer of My Chemical Romance. Husband of Lindsey Ann Ballato of Mindless Self Indulgence. Father of Bandit Lee Way. Brother of Michael James Way. Most of all, a man who saved all lives. He's not just a man, he's a hero.
I will never be able to meet him again. For he has passed away.
Once again, I feel trapped. That was when I decided to do it.
I took the gun, held it to my head. Then,
pulled the trigger.
