BLSC #10 : His Bid on Her

Chapter 9 - A little piece of Truth

Irene Payton

I walked out to the rooftop of my apartment and put my alcohol bottle on the table. I sat down on the chair and looked at the beautiful night view of New York.

I just finished my work and I wanted a drink so bad so I decided to buy on big bottle of Jack Daniels on my way home.

I swear I'm starting to get tired dealing with Joel and the 7 Gold Kids. They literally come to the shop everyday to have a meetings or things like that. I mean because of that people started to come to my place but not for my cake but to see them.

I hate the fact my customer started to asking about my relationship with Joel. I hate it because I can't answer the question, this kind of situation was really new to me.

When I was in highschool and dated him, I never have this kind of attention. Joel always hide me in the dark, he's embarassed having a girlfriend like me. When I was in highschool, I'm not that beautiful. I rarely wear make up, style my hair and even try to look good. I'm plain.

We dated and I know Joel cared for me but he never wants to show me to the world. No one knows that I dated him. We dated secretly. He really did protect me because no one bullied me or things like that but let's try to put you in my position.

One of the most popular guys asked you out, but you only dated him secretly and you have accept the fact that he kissed another girl.. hugged another girl.. make out with another girl.. even grabbed other girl's ass and I have to deal with that everyday. He told me that's only for his reputation and he loves when people worshipped him.

I always come home with a broken heart and he always fixed that night by giving me passionate kisses, hugs, flowers, teddy bears and things like that. I kept holding myself because I like this guy so much but day after day it was hurting me.

One day, I gave him a couple ring that I found on the store. It was a simple thin ring. I gave it to him but he told me that I'm childish. I ignored his statement and asked him wear it to school tomorrow so he can prove that he really like me.

He told me that he will wear it but he ended up didn't. I asked him why and he reasoned out that he forgot about it. Imagine how heart broken I was at that time.

I tried to be like him at one time but it didn't work. He was mad at the guy who worked on a project with me and ended up beating that guy without any solid reason. His friends thought that he lost his mind but he's just doing it because he was jealous. He told me if I went out with a guy again, he will beat that guy the next day.

He was serious.

I thought he was joking about it but he was damn serious. But still.. he still playing around with girls thinking about his reputation. The craziest thing is hat the 7 Gold Kids didn't even know that he has a girlfriend. They knew about me a few days before graduation. A few days before I ran away from him.

I can't believe it!

I'm tired. We already broke up like 50 times but still he can catch me back so I decided to run away without any trace so he won't be able to catch me again. I hate him.

I often laughed at myself for being a fool. I can't believe that I loved him so much until I stayed with him even though he was acting like a manwhore.

I sighed and opened my Jack Daniel. I drank it straight from the bottle and looked around to see the beautiful view.

I need to find a way to shove Joel away from me. I really need a plan so he won't reach me again. I need to come out with a plan. I'm tired. I don't want to get back with him even though my heart's started to betray me.

"Why are you here alone?" I jumped and fell down to the ground. I groaned. Joel ran to me and helped me to get up but I pushed him away.

"Why are you here?" I hissed not bothering to look at him.

"I miss you." He answered and I sat down on the chair again.

"Why are you drinking?" He asked as he took it and drank it. I turned to him disbelief.

"Can you stop this? All of this!"

"Stop what?" He asked as he looked at me

"Your acting!"

"Acting?"

"You're acting to be care and do all of this stuff!" I bursted and he just looked at me in a calm expression.

"You know I won't let you go again."

"4 years Joel! Move on! Life must go on!"

"Do you think I never try that?" He asked as he looked at the view. He drank my alcohol again and I sighed. I leaned back and can't help but wanting to kill this guy in front of me.

"I tried, I tried everything." He said in a small tone

"Leave me alone, I come here to reach my dreams so don't ruin it for me."

"If I can move on, I won't try to reach you again. You know me. I'm not the type who will comeback to one particular person again and again."

"There's a lot of beautiful, sexy and proper girls out there. Try and go fuck one! I hate seeing you like an idiot! I don't even want to get back with you!" I said coldly.

"I tried, Irene! I tried!" He bursted and looked at me with his angry eyes.

"I tried everything. I tried hangout with other girls, fuck other girls and tried to have a relationship but I can't. You kept appearing in my mind! So why exactly the reason that you ran away from me?" He asked.

"You want to know?" I asked and he looked at me seriously.

"I give you the reasons but I want you to leave me alone." I said and he looked at me disbelief.

"No." He said

"Just give up already!"

"I won't give up until I get you back." I want to kill him so bad!