BLSC #10 : His Bid on Her

Chapter 13 - Erase

Irene Payton

"You're welcome. Thankyou so much for trusting us to make your engagement cake." I smiled.

"It's okay."

After done with my customer and I walked into the kitchen. I sat down for awhile to relax because I'm damn tired.

My head suddenly remembered that I told Joel about the miscarriage. I remembered that I was planning to tell Joel about my pregnancy but seeing him with girls making me shut myself for telling him.

I ran to Ohio and started my new life there.

When I was pregnant, I was so happy and can't wait welcoming my baby to the world. I hipnotized myself that Joel won't want this baby so I have to raise her or him by myself.

I don't have a lot money at that time so I started to work.

"You okay?" Velda asked and I looked up to her.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I smiled.

"I'm going out to eat for awhile, is that okay?" She asked.

"Sure.. Go." I smiled and she smiled widely. I got up to make another batch of cupcakes when suddenly Velda called me.

"Irene.. someone's looking for you." Velda said and I turned to the door. I found myself walking towards the door and I saw Axel.

"What are you doing here?" I asked coldly.

"Oh.." He looked at me shock and I looked at me confuse.

"I was asking your assistant for your number but-"

"Why are you asking for your number?" I asked suspiciously.

"Because I thought you're with Joel."

"Me with Joel? I saw him like 3 days ago." I said and he sighed.

"He went to see you 3 days ago and he didn't come home since that day." I looked at him disbelief.

"We already tried to track his car and phone but still no where to found. He knows how to shut the tracker and everything so it make senses." Axel sighed.

"I got nothing to do with him. Go find him yourself."

"Okay then, thanks for telling me." Axel said and I nodded. He walked out from my bakery slash cafe and called someone through the phone.

Where is that bastard? How come he didn't come home for 3 days? Why do you care Irene? Let him be..

I cursed myself when I found myself walking out from the store. I just told myself not to care but now I'm poking Axel. He turned to me and ended the call.

"Have you check the CCTV for his car?" I asked and Axel nodded.

"We have a system for that but that thing is that he's not using his car anymore." My eyes widen.

"What is that mean? He's kidnapped?" I asked and Axel chuckled a little.

"A guy like us won't be kidnap, so he's not. He just dissapeared. I thought he's with you."

"No.. I don't want to do anything related to him again."

"He still loves you." Axel stated and I shook my head.

"I still love him too.. but sometimes we're not meant to be together. There are things that you don't know Axel. It's easy for you to say that he still loves me but you guys don't know my side of the story." I said and he nodded lightly.

"I know that why I can't judge about it." Axel said.

"Just find him and make sure that he's okay. Can y-" I was cut when his phone rang. He saw the caller ID and picked the phone up.

"You found him? Where?" My eyes widen.

"He what?" Axel asked in a really shock tone, I'm dying to know what happen to Joel.

"Okay.. I'll be there!" He ended the call and he turned to me.

"We found him but he's not in a good state." My heart froze.

"Do you want to come with me?" He asked and I found myself shaking my head. Axel nodded and walked away. I gulped and still in my shock mode. I walked back to the my shop and go straight to my office. I sat on my chair and looked blankly at the wall.

"Don't.. even.. think about going." I told myself again and again.

"We're done. There's no going back, Irene." I told myself and found myself crying. I tried to calm myself down with his fact.

At least, he's alive. That's all I need to know. You need to be strong Irene. Don't even think about going to the hospital and care about him again.

He deserves it. He hurted you a lot in the past and now you need to shut him off.

With that I successfully tell myself not to care and I kept trying to control my emotions. I tried to fill my head with work and work so I won't be thinking about Joel.

I successfully do that and I'm proud of myself. We've ended things and if go there.. I know I will go back to him instantly. I need to know where I stand now.

I got home and go straight to the bathroom. I jumped into the shower still trying to control my head and body not to go to the hospital. There's no going back, Irene.

You ended things with him and now you need to get your senses back because he hurted you and I don't need to care about him anymore.

After showering, I forced myself to sleep to forget everything that happen today and yesterday. I found myself slowly drifting to sleep and started to forget about bad things that happen today.

I wish I can erase my memories that related to Joel because everything related to him pains me.

I wish have that eraser of life..