Wonderings of a mind

Depression and music

Before I start I want to mention that, no, I am not depressed. This post is brought about by recent events. I have been there though so I know where the feelings come from.

People would ask why I listen to depressing music.  They say that perhaps if I don't listen to depressing music that I wouldn't feel depressed. But in reality I don't become depressed from listening to depressing music; I listen to depressing music because I am depressed. The depression was already there and to be honest listening to depressing music when depressed actually makes me feel better. It is refreshing to know that there is someone else that feels the same way. That you really aren't alone in the feelings running through you. That there is someone else that understands the feeling of having the weight of the world on your shoulders and feeling like if you aren't ALWAYS perfect that everything will crumble and fall apart.

And the best part? These are usually celebrities! They are still human and they still feel the same things that we do. Another good thing? Typically amongst all the depressing music there is also a song about hope and about how there are others that feel the same way and that there ARE people who care if you are depressed, or gosh forbid suicidal. There is a song that says that things can get better. I will use Linkin Park as an example. Their lead singer recently hung himself.  In their music (which btw got me through some tough times so I was sad to hear he died) they have a lot of depression shining through (along with some revolution type stuff in their later work)  but they also have those songs about hope... Like The Messenger. Or One More Light... Where the lyrics are actually "who cares if one more light goes out?... Who cares if someone's time runs out?... Well I do." and so there are people who know that many believe that most people don't care about how you feel and who would care if you died... Or that you are depressed but the truth is is that there are plenty of peopkw who care even if you don't think so, especially while you are in the moment. 

So I also want to put it out there if anyone needs someone to talk to about anything or if you feel like the world is just against you that I am here to talk to. I know that it doesn't seem like I am on that much because I don't post too much but I do check on here and read things. So coming from someone who didn't have anyone who understood or could help for the LONGEST time I am here to help if needed. I don't want anyone to feel like they are worthless or not worth the trouble because that is far from the truth. 

You are worth it. You're life is worth it and even in hard times everyone needs to have an understanding that things will get better... It may take a while but they do get better.