Watched // Phan (HIATUS)

Chapter 25

Dans pov:
I may be slightly tipsy, but I am sober enough to understand everything that Is going on. Not only has my brother's grave been robbed, but I know who's done it. I hide my face into Phil's flushed neck as he drops onto his knees. I feel Chris and Pj walk around us, exiting the room to leave us by ourself. I sob heavily into his embrace. Does every good occasion have to turn out horrible? "I- know who did it Phil, I understand." I choke up. I feel Phil unsteadily gasp against me. Gently replacing his shaky hands on my back. "You- you do?" His voice trembles. My cries become harsher, my chest tight.
"S-S-sSam." I stutter through loud wales. Phil's shaking starts getting worse as he tries to mask His tears escaping his tightly shut eyes. "Wh- who is he Dan?" I don't like this. We both sound so broken. "Sam P-Pepper, wa-s my childhood bull-y". I can't do anything, can't think, speak properly or function. It always has to be me. "I never knew that they were related" I say. Phil holds me as tight as he can, Comforting me his best. "Sshh, he might know where you used to be, but he doesn't know where we are now." He tells me. I love this human and believe every goddamn word he says. But this I'm not so positive about.

Phil's pov:
I finish telling Chris and Pj everything Dan told me. They are insanely drunk right now, and I probably will have to repeat it all tomorrow, but they have listened quite well. They give me hugs to give to Dan before I reenter our room. I look over at him. He's facing away from me, onesie wrapped around his waste. He is not shaking anymore, just crying uncontrollably. I slowly crawl into bed, wraping my arm around him, tangling our legs. Dan lifts up his head so he can rest on my arm, before I cuddle closer to his body. "Are we actually safe here Phil?" he asks through a hoarse voice. I snuggle my face into his chocolate curls. "Promise" I lie. Who knows what's gonna happen now? Soon we both settle down, and I fall fast asleep.

My sleep has been restless all night long, but Dan has slept like a baby the entire time. I can now confidently say that having your loved one cry themselves to sleep while in your arms is by far the worst sensation ever. On numerous occasions throughout the night I tried to slip away for a breath of fresh air, but I would be stopped by Dan pressing himself closer to Me. Making me smile weakly. My eyes suddenly fly open when a squeak of pain comes from Dan after my hand brushes against his arm, his harmed arm. My hand flies to cover my mouth, realizing how far Dan still has to go before the weakness will become slightly less sensitive. Tears fall from my eyelids, for some reason, I think I might know why. Slowly but swiftly, I make my way out of bed, quietly running through to the living room. Closing the door behind me and collapsing onto the couch. -You're an adult, adults don't cry! Especially boys. Maybe you should of been born in your sister's body so she wouldn't have had to change gender-. All these thoughts attack my mind out of nowhere. I pick myself up pathetically when I hear the door creak open. "Phil... Are you okay?" Chris and Pj say near enough in sync. I sniffle loudly, while wiping under my still leaking eyes. They quickly come Sit next to me when they notice that I'm definitely not okay. "Aw Phil! What happened?" Pj asks concerned. I'm unable to answer by the overwhelming amount of emotions attacking me. They sit down next to me, starting to rub my back so it's easier to let out my feelings. I cover my eyes with the palms of my hands, resting my elbows on my shaky knees.

*unsteady breath*

"I- I just. I just don't know what to do." I weep helplessly. "Dan has been put through so much, and I promised Adrian that I would help him. And it hasn't worked. Her, that thing has scared him to near death. And I thought that he would finally be safe. And- and I can't do anything. I've tried to help him and I feel like I've failed. I don't know what to do anymore. The world is not working out for Dan and it's killing me. I can't not cry while watching my boyfriend get harassed by that idiot that hurt him mentally. Watching him get better then break again destroys me. I feel like hiding from him is better, even though it's not. I don't know how he will react to this man that is 4 years older than him crying this much. And-" Chris and Pj stand off the couch and walk out of the room. *sigh*

"And I just don't want to lose my Dan".

I keep my eyes closed when hands lightly grab my wrists, pulling them away from my burning eyes.

"You will never lose me lion".

My eyes Widen under the lid to the soft touch of familiar lips pressing against my rosey cheek. I slowly open my eyes when I'm pulled into a heart filled hug. Dans smaller torso against me, his arms warped around my shaking form. "Phil, you don't have to hide anything from me, I'm always going to be here for you." he pulls away to look at me, his soft gaze keeping me captivated, before resting his forehead against mine.
A single tear falls from his blistered eyes. "How, how long were you there?" I stutter. His clammy hands hold the back of my neck while his eyes flutter shut.
"Long enough".

Dan's pov:
A bitter breeze hits my back and awakens me suddenly. The weight next to me leaves the bed, stumbling out of the room. Tiredly. I twist round to look out the door, watching Chris and Pj enter the living room. I kick the bed sheets of off me to check what happened.
Slowly, I peek round the doorway to find the boys with their palms on Phil's back as he lay his head in his hands. Chris notices me, giving a look to tell me to come in, but be quiet. I do so, to toeing in front of Phil, crouching onto my knees as he expressed his opinions.

I feel guilty as I listen to the pain in his voice that I haven't heard before. Feeling like u should of noticed his behaviour, but he was more concerned about me. A layer of Salty water glaze my eyes while listening to his worries. Especially when he says these specific parts:
"The world is not working out for Dan and it's killing me." "Watching him get better then break again destroys me. I feel like hiding from him is better, even though it's not." "And-"
He pauses when Chris and Pj leave the room. The next thing breaks my heart while mending it all at the same time.
"And I just don't want to lose my Dan".
I can't take it any longer, I need to tell him what he needs to hear.
I gently tug on his shaking wrists. Pulling them away to reveal the patches where he had been crying.
"You will never lose me lion".
The subtle gasp of shock & happiness that escapes his dry lips is enough to mend any of my troubles. An affectionate kiss is placed on his cheek before he is pulled into a hug. "Phil, you don't have to hide anything from me, I'm always gonna be here for you." I slowly pull away to stare into the sparkling pools that are surrounded by rivers of red *Phil's bloodshot eyes* then pressing our foreheads against each other. "How, How long were you there?" Phil asks, half relieved half worried. "Long enough" I reply. "I'm sorry you had to hear how pathetic I am, Dan" he hitches. I tut while shaking my head. "I swear Philip, if you apologize for something you don't have to apologize for again, then... I'll have to top for a month!" His soft giggle warms my heart, he kisses gently. "Then I will never apologize for it again, at least I will try". We laugh in unison. Phil rests his head on my shoulder. "It's too early" I begin. "Can we go back to bed?" Phil raps his arm around my neck tightly. "Yes, but you'll have to carry me". He jokes. I sarcastically sigh, sniggering while picking him up, bridally carrying him through to our room.

After settling into a comfy position, we fall fast asleep... Again.

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Sorry that it took so long to publish, I finished writing it and totally forgot to hit publish XD