Loving Dreaming •A Killing Stalking Fanfiction•

05

I'm beginning to regret my decision of not speaking with Sangwoo during school hours. It's been harder to make plans, I try run him down on the street but he moves so fast because he's usually out of class earlier than me. I don't want to call out his name either. I've made an idiotic choice with this whole ordeal.

After a couple weeks I slowly started giving up on him. But my feelings remained the same since the last time we talked. I've given up on being his friend. I have to accept the fact that we live in two different worlds.

We do exchange looks often. It's rare for us to pass each other in the halls considering our classes are completely different despite being in the same year. But when we do cross paths in the hallways he always emits a captivating smile that fills my stomach with butterflies.

It is also nearing the end of the school year. Summer will begin in mere month and I am not prepared for exams at all.

"Yoon Bum, come here." The teacher calls out to me, she was standing at the end of the lockers. Why couldn't she just walk towards me? I shouldn't complain, I don't exactly want to be near her either.

I close my locker and walk towards her, she wore a frilly polka dotted blouse and black pants today, it was much better than her usual ugly ass brown knitted sweaters. It's at least bearable to be around her.

She gave me a small kind smile, I ignore the gesture and just stare at her, waiting for what she has to say.

"I assigned a tutor for to assist you on improving your current grades and your exams." Her deep brown eyes stared down at me.

"I-I don't want a tutor." I reply angrily. I clench my fist and all negative thoughts were soaring through my mind.

"Having a tutor will benefit in your grades. You haven't been doing so well throughout the year."

"I don't care." I roll my eyes to come off as confident but in reality I was leaning on the edge of an anxiety attack.

"Please, Bum, just consider this. At least meet your tutor, his name is-"

"Leave me alone." I say through my teeth and I stomp away to head to the cafeteria for lunch.

Shit, I still have to go to her class after this.

I wait in line for the cheap lunch prepared for today. It's always unappealing and too ugly to eat but what can you do? Starve? Being bored in school is one thing and it is tolerable for me but to be bored and hungry, that's a whole new level of hell. At least it doesn't taste as bad as it looks, but that doesn't necessarily mean it tastes good either.

I walk to the back tables that no one likes to sit at to take my seat. I knew no one liked sitting here because I always at here. After a year of eating lunches alone I began to not really care, I preferred to eat alone anyway. Unless it was with Sangwoo.

I start to feel lonely for him. Although he didn't know how I felt, he still treated me like I was special to him. I wonder if he would eat with me everyday if I didn't go through with my stupid idea. I had to do it, wishing I didn't is just me being selfish.

"Are you Yoon Bum?" A skinny boy stands at the end of my table holding a paper bag. He was squinting as if he couldn't see me at all. He probably had bad eyesight or maybe that's just his face?

"Yeah." I nod slightly.

He squints his eyes harder, I jolt back in surprise.

"I'm your tutor. Do you mind if I sit here?" Huh, he has braces too. I could tell right away he was a total nerd that probably does the best in his classes, maybe even better than Sangwoo.