Parties & Tattoos; Kethany

Eighteen

Bethany's Pov |

Waking up dying of a hangover because Hailey & I came back from my meet up tired so we decided to drink, eat snacks, & watch movies last night. I jump in the shower, washing my hair etc. For this weekend I'm going for glam.

I get dressed, do my makeup & text my manager that I wanna go get some food so I need security. I cannot go anywhere without security because it's insane everytime I'm at events like this. It's crazy.

I finally leave out the door to meet my security downstairs. Jake & Tessa are in front of the door probably waiting for someone.

"Hey!" Tessa smiles as she waves.

"Hey, matching jackets. Twins." I laugh as we both analyze our outfits.

"I'm actually gonna go eat something. I'll see you guys later." I smile.

"I'll tag along with you?" Jake says quickly as I nodd.

"I have a meetup so we can hangout later Beth?" She smiles as I wave goodbye.

We begin walking to the elevators as Kian & the whole squad begins walking our way.

Awesome.

"Bethhhh!" Bobby yells as he runs over to me embracing me into a hug hug.

Glad he missed me.

"What you guys up too?" Corey asks as Kian smiles at me wanting to laugh.

"To breakfast actually." I say as Jake awkwardly stands there.

"What's up Jake." Kian says as he shakes his hand.

"Nothing much dude. You?"

"Oh nothing." He smiles as we all enter the elevator.

Kian stands behind me as everyone stands in the front of the door, I stupidly choose the back. Kian grabs my waist, as he breathes down my neck. Goosebumps begin to appear as I try to remove myself from his grip but I don't want too. I want this forever. Everyone talking, no one is laying attention. We're on the eleventh floor stopping for more people each time.

"You look gorgeous today." He whispers into my ear as my head tilts sideways.

"Beth, where you wanna go?" Jake asks as the door opens.

"Uh actually we can eat in the cafe here to avoid mobs?" I say as we walk to the little cafe ten steps away.

"That's funny, we actually are gonna eat there too?" Kian smirks as everyone catches on to Kian & nodd.

Fml.

I roll my eyes as we walk in as security follows. We order & sit down, they sit on the other side but Jake & I sit alone.

"How was your night last night?" I ask Jake as he fixes his hair.

"Pretty boring. I went to sleep at like mine. I was exhausted. You?" He adds.

"Drank & ate snacks while watching movies." I laugh as he grabs his phone.

"I took a video as I listened to you yelling at the tv." He laughs as I listen to the audio cringing at my drunkness.

We both laugh, I look over at Kian. Him & Franny are laughing as everyone talks to one another. They look happy. Kian looks happy.

I look over at Jake & he smiles at me softly. I grab his chin & kiss his lips softly across the table.

"I was waiting for that since yesterday?" He laughs as our food gets placed on the table.

"Actually miss, can we take it to go? I'll pay extra?" I smile as Jake smirks.

We both get up & walk over to the cashier. I look over at Kian softly & he's staring us down. He looks away then looks again. Jake pays as he grabs the bag & my waist, as we walk to the elevators.

Jake slams me against the elevator walls kissing me roughly. As the bag falls on the floor I kiss back, messing up his hair & his clothes. The elevator dings signaling us it's at our floor we continue to kiss to the door. He opens it as it's dead silent, he sets the food down as I lay on the bed removing my jacket & heels.

He takes his shirt off as he crawls up to me kissing my lips roughly as he bites my bottom lip. I instantly feel turned on, I push him so he's now on the bottom as I straddle him. He removes his jeans & boxers, I lift my dress up as he enters slowly. I feel myself full as we both begin a rhythm.

It gets faster as I feel more & more pleasure.

"Fuck Kiannn" I moan as it continues faster.

I begin to analyze my words & I said Kian. He continues & continues, I guess he never noticed in between of my moans & his grunts. As we continue the door unlocks as he throws me on the bed & covers us with his sheets.

"Ivan, knock?" Jake says as I cover my face in embarrassment.

"I didn't know, I sleep here too?" He laughs as he walks out.

"I'm gonna go." I slightly say as I grab my jacket & my heels.

I walk out closing the door & leaning against it. This is not for me. I called another guy during sex Kian? This isn't for me. Obviously I was thinking about Kian.

I walk over to my room as I throw my heels on the ground beside the door. I walk & look over to my bed to see Kian on his phone on my bed.

"Kian?" I say as he looks up & laughs.

"Did he bust that fast?" He laughs as he stands up.

"He didn't bust at all. It was literally like five minutes. Firstly I called him Kian as I moaned & someone walked in." I roll my eyes as I throw myself on my bed.

"You moaned my name?" He laughs.

"Yes Kian. This is hard?" I say as I grab my heels.

He grabs one of them trying to put them on as I lay back.

"Maybe you should realize that its over & this is meant to be Bethany?" He says.

He rarely calls me by my full name. I sit up & look at him.

"Wanna know why this is hard?" I say.

"Why?"

"Because the way you act around Franny. You're smiley & you look happier. You laugh & what not Kian. Maybe I'm not cut out for this shit. I'm young, I've only been serious about one guy ever & that's you. It's like you're not fully there with me Kian." I say as I begin to cry softly.

"Ever since I've started YouTube I've been in love with Bethany Mota. My first ever actual crush & love. I wouldn't let my roommate come in between something I wanted for so bad. I wanted slash want you Bethany. I'm with Fran all day that we pick up things from eachother & it's funny. It's my lifestyle Beth." He says as he puts my feet down.

"I've always Kian wanted to understand how life would be if I wasn't in love with you. If my heart didn't always skip a beat when the name Kian was mentioned or when we kiss that I feel like butterfiles are fighting in my stomach. I started to love you when I was seventeen Kian. We were babies, but we're both twenty one & battle with showing our emotions with eachother & I don't want that." I begin crying as Kian cuddles me.

"My love for you has always & always will be unconditional. I want to be with you, not only because you're my bestfriend but because you understand me Beth. Don't let confusing thoughts detour you from your feelings?"

"What I feel is pure Kian. I love you but sometimes I dislike loving you." I cry as I lightly punch his chest.

"We need time apart. You need time apart." He says as I glance up at him.

"Yeah maybe." I say as I stand up, grabbing my phone & walking out.

Let's use this time.

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