A Twist In My Story (命运的捉弄)

the eleventh chapter

Mayday! Mayday!
It hurts so much to go on after what has went down.. Almost a year later, the subject was left untouched and I was untouched.. Loosen grip hold off.. Invisible.. Worse is unloved by everyone, or so only of one person that I'd want to.

I get to see one, cool, close to my heart rock band! They're playing tonight in a small stadium or arena and I can't wait to hear them play and sing my favorite songs. Good ones are off their old albums & ep. But I really wish they'd sing this particular song that I would definitely relate to and die for if they've performed it live at my very first show of them.
They're a band called Black Parade! They're kind of modern hard rock. Mostly would say or categorize they're a pop punk band. I only listen cos of punk and they're alternative slightly more and punk band.

I am a half quarter late from commuting to the venue and as I went up there were so many kids and grown emo teenagers of the 90's who listens to punk rock and shit; & I am one of them & proud! So I went to find the very last of the extremely long line to the balcony section. I found it and it was near the wash room. I dressed, if anyone is interested, I dressed as emo/punk rock as I can. I had dyed my hair previously when I have also cut it in a different layered hair style. Kind of like a scene girl who had dyed her hair auburn red or scarlet. But, with me I was wearing black shirt of 'Black parade' merch, tight black jeans, heeled black boots, ballers, chains are a must to me 'ehem fetish and finally, I won't forget to mention I have eyeliner on! Haha
I am all set and ready to rock tonight! Head bang with my boys of the band and the crowd.
I am going to watch the concert alone, I got in after the long wait. I saw they are selling booze and merchandise in the lobby. I went up the stairs to reserved myself a seat and found a perfect one.

The lights all closed down and the staged lights were set and smoke machines were noticeable.
The drum set was set earlier and the microphone stand and mic was on it.
The band members slowly, one-by-one emerged from the side curtains to the stage and welcomed everybody and themselves to feel at home playing their music.
This will be a sick one!

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They started off with a bang of the drums! Tom, Tom, bass, crash, smash, cowbell hehe
Then,
Six strings & a half-step
Picking, plucking, strumming, sliding, barred, open, bass, lead, riffs hehe

He brought out his piano! The lead singer of the band, Drake. He started to play..
Middle C. "Lue don't cry, I know. You're trying your hardest. And the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared.. "
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".. And you know, it's haunting but compared to your eyes nothing shines quite as bright. And when we look to the sky it's not mine but I want it so.."

Pressing keys, blacks, whites, sliding through the keyboard hehe
He's got it. He's got the crowd singing..

"I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor and asked my girl to dance..."

".. She'll say yes.."

"Because these words were never easier for me to say or her second guess, but I guess.."

" That I can live without you but....."

"Without you I'll be miserable... At best.."

"You're all that I hope to find in every single way.
And everything I could give, is everything you couldn't take..."

Cos nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away...
And the hardest part of living is just taking breathes to stay

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"....I'd put your picture in a frame that stands at the side of my bed,..
so whenever I get sad I can stare at your face !
And overplay that I won't forget
and all I remember is talking is cheap, and your lies were expensive and hell only knows when I've come to my senses.
..Now! I can't breathe at all. "

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"Jersey just got colder and I'd have you know I'm scared to death.
That everything that you would say to me was just,
A lie until you left,
Now I'm holding just a little bit stronger,
Hold me up just a little bit longer.
I'll be fine, I swear. I'm just gone beyond repair.."

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" let's drink to memories we share; down to one to all the hopes and cares, here's two for being unaware that you're gone...
Because for far too long you'd be a memoryyyy. "

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"When she smiles her words got nothing to do with me..
I'm not the one who sings her to sleep..
And I've been talking to god asking for just a little help with you ,
But it's hooooope ~ lessssss"

"It's not the first time, but this one really carved it in , tell your new friends, that they don't know you like I do!"
" it's over... I wanna see you again,..
I wanna feel it again.. "

" I'll keep you warm say its in my arms, till heaven calls keep holding on. "

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" And now I just had this dream that we were on my bed again
Makin' love the way we did
Tell me how could I forget
This can't be healthy now the way I dream about your lips
But this just wasn't any kiss
I hope you're still not over this,
Not at least 'til I get over you.. "

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" Maybe I'll collapse and float away...
Pleaseeeeee..
Goo hoooooome!! "

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I started to sing the part where I could relate to to the extreme! They played it! One of the songs I am waiting for them to sing! Omg finally I stood the whole night watching them, singing along and head banging dang, I am not getting myself tipsy from this booze, it's uneffective.
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"Another night, another dream wasted on you"
"Just be here now against me.."
"For heaven's sake, I know you're sorry."
"Inside I hope you know I'm dying with my heart beside and shattered pieces that may never be replaced and if I 'd die right now you'd never be the same."

" Forever could see us not you and me.
And you helped me out of the dark and I gave my heart as an offering !! "

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"And IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII , WILL ALWAYSSS REMEMBER YOU AS YOU ARE RIGHT NOW TO ME."

"And IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII , WILL ALWAYSSS REMEMBER YOU NOW REMEMBER YOU NOW AHHHHHH UHHAHHHYE "
" SO, SLEEP ALONE TONIGHT WITH NO ONE HERE JUST BY YOUR SIDE
SLEEP ALONE TONIGHT "

" HOW DOES 'SHE' FEEL? HOW DOES 'SHE' KISS? HOW DOES 'SHE' TASTE? RIGHT HERE JUST BY YOUR SIDE SLEEP ALONE TONIGHTTTT."
HOW DOES 'SHE' FEEL? HOW DOES 'SHE' KISS? HOW DOES 'SHE' TASTE? RIGHT HERE JUST BY YOUR SIDE SLEEP ALONE TONIGHT."
HOW DOES 'SHE' FEEL? HOW DOES 'SHE' KISS? HOW DOES 'SHE' TASTE? RIGHT HERE JUST BY YOUR SIDE SLEEP ALONE TONIGHT."
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" I can 't forget you.. I know you want me to want you I want to.
But I can 't forgive you..
But I can't forgive you I know you want me to want you I want toooo "

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"We all get stuck in funny ways sometimes, you and every friend of mine."
"We'll find a way to run away tonight..."

"You could be my compass, teach me how to read these broken lines.
Hold me like a lover, we'll find a way to run away tonight
Tell me when it 's over promise that you'll always keep me in mind burning like a soldier, I'll find my way to you and save the day. "

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"And today , I knooooww! That tomorrow will shine again golden and bring our hearts back home! And today I know ! That tomorrow will shine again golden and bring our hearts back hoooome.
And today , III knooooww! That tomorrow will shine again golden and bring our hearts back home! And today I know ! That tomorrow will shine again golden and bring our hearts back hoooome. "