thunder && lightning ❁ byler

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A/N YES I USUALLY DO THESE AT THE END BUT THIS IS URGENT!!! I NEED IDEAS FOR WHERE THIS IS GOING BECAUSE IM HONESTLY CLUELESS!!! IF I CANT GET ANY IM ENDING THIS YIEKSSS also totally ignore the fact that Dustin and Lucas got left downstairs. its not like they minded anyways hahaha

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^ I stole that from greaserbabes  on their Anxiety//Book 1 story. I highly recommend their works if you have read The Outsiders or have gay ships. :) Never hesitate to make corrections.

   will byer's pov
   Again, I woke up in a sweat. I must have fallen asleep cuddling.
I dreamt of this cut on my elbow. Now I really needed to pee, so I got up on my own.
I had the pain to urge. ( comment if you get it.) I needed to pee but the door was locked. I covered my area and did a potty dance.
A few seconds of dancing, and the door pops open to reveal a very, very almost-naked Mike.
"Will, I... Oh..."
"Oh god..."
We were both very flustered. Mike only wearing his boxers made me twitch a little.
   "Will, I'm sorry, you fell asleep during our silence and it got hot and I didn't wanna take the blanket off of us so I-"
   "Mike, it's okay..."
   "Oh. Okay. I thought maybe you would-"
   "Mike! It's fine! Don't worry! I just need to pee so if you don't mind..." I trailed off silently.
   I walked closer to the door, hoping he would step out of the way. He stepped to the side letting me in, but only for a second before wrapping an arm around my waist, twirling me and bringing me in.
   "You're adorable. Oh god. You're cute and gorgeous and so angelic! Wow. How did I end up with such a cutie like you?" He asked, not asking for an answer. He followed this by booping (that's not rly a word here but it happened) my button nose and leaving me clueless.

   Washing my hands again, or did I do it again? Did I wash my hands in my dream? Wait, irrelevant.
   I dried my hands off and headed back to Mike. He wasn't even laying down. He was at his desk, not doing anything but having his hands in his lap and staring at the desktop.
   In the doorway I whispered, "Mike?"
   Mike immediately looked up, and then turned his head in my direction. "Yes, Will?"
   I hesitated, pausing longingly. "Do we like each other?"
   "If the feeling is mutual, yes." He smiled a toothy smile at me and small dimples showed. His freckles just looked so cute pairing with it.
   "I guess so, then."
   "I've never even made much physical contact with a boy before."
   "Besides us cuddling?"
   "Yes... that was almost awkward because I wasn't even sure what to do. Our siblings almost cuddled, too, but they didn't even touch! Like, why would you even be in the same bed if you aren't gonna snog or cuddle?"
  "Snog? Really, Mike?!" I laughed at this. His eyes crinkled as he laughed along. "But, that's a lie, Mike."
   "Huh?"
   "About you not having lots of previous physical contact with a guy. You said you cuddled with Dustin!"
   He grinned sheepishly. "Just to make you relax and feel comfortable." He shrugged, too. "A white lie? I'm sorry Will."
   "It's fine, really. I was almost suprised you said that. I feel like I would be so weirded out if we even slept that close..."
  He closed his eyes as I said this. I was still in the doorway, but I continued.
   "...You're the only one who makes me feel this way. As if I'm always happy alone with you. I just want to hug you and cuddle you and make you happy like me."
   I could see his cheeks flushing under his patches of freckles. He looked down in his lap where his hands fiddled together.
   I headed towards him, and placed a hand on his shoulder awkwardly. "You're special, Mike. You're my favorite special thing."
   He didn't respond, again. He seemed sad now.
   "They found El."
   "Wait, what? What happened? Where is she?"
   "They gave her back to her mom and aunt. She's happy. I think I am, too. I don't think I was as happy as I thought I was with her here, you know? I think I just wanted to think something was making me happy because I was so sad.
   "For example, I kissed her because I wanted to kiss someone. I cared for her because I wanted to care for someone. I wanted her to be mine because I wanted someone to be mine when the real someone I wanted wasn't there.
   "Again, I take it all back. I wish I hadn't taught her what liking someone was. Maybe since she isn't usually in social and normal situations she won't even care about us 'liking' each other. Maybe she'll forget...
   "I didn't like like her. I like liked you, and I still do, even more. You know why more? Because I took you for granted. I barely lasted a week without you. I was so nervous and scared.., Heck, I didn't go an hour without some memory or thought of you crossing my mind. You leaving me was literally like a piece of my heart leaving. I like you more because I realized what I am without you. I really like you, Will. I don't know what love is, but I think it's what I'm feeling right now, because I'm flustered saying this and I can barely make out your face."
   I took a deep breathe in. "Wow, Mike, I-"
   He cut me off. "I know it's a lot to take in, but I really mean it. I don't really want to hear something back just because I said something. I want to hear it in an our own next moment when it's fresh in your mind." He smiled, and I smiled back. I stood him up.
   "Where shall we sleep, my prince?" I asked him, linking arms.

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Also, I got that from a book. I think it was Roommates by Nikki, I don't remember but I will let you guys know. I am going to be in Hawaii from July 31st - August 7th, 2017. Then I will be in Seattle, Washington til the 10th. I probably won't update til I get back, and my first year of high school starts on the 30th but I will be playing polo so I will be 50/50 about updating. Thank you for sticking with this! Please share so I can get to 1k <3