thunder && lightning ❁ byler

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I still have no idea where I'm going with this. YIKES lololol...

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mike wheeler's pov
It was weird, us two alone. Like a magnetic field around me and him, separating us. I hated it. I wish I could push through it and sit so close our legs would gently brush against each other...
"So... El huh?" He had asked me earlier. I didn't know why exactly I told him. Why had I? I could have just simply said I was desperate because she was the first girl to not be utterly disqusted by me. But di¢ky me had to KEEP TALKING!!
   I talked about our first kiss and how I "felt about her." And to be honest, I really think I kissed her and asked her to go to the Snowball with me is because... I knew she didn't know school me. Or how I was "frog face" and how I was weird. I knew she would say yes because she wasn't exposed to "normal" boys our age.
   I think I wanted to prove Troy wrong.
   The thing that pained me the most was that he had a look in his eyes which I couldn't read. He watched me very carefully and would awkwardly shift his weight on the couch across from me.
   Maybe he just felt awkward. Maybe he didn't care? But why would he ask me? Maybe, after all, he felt left out?
"Wait... You KISSED her?!" He asked, snapping me back into reality. I probably rambled about El but was thinking of him the whole time.
   Nervously I had replied, "Um.. yeah..."
   "Before me?!" He cried.
   "Before you got to kiss me?" The words came out fast, because that's how I viewed the situation. He wanted to kiss me?!
   "No, that you got your first kiss before me!"
"Haha, yeah..." I didn't know what my response was. I kind of hoped he wanted to kiss me first. To be my first kiss.
Do I take it back? Why do I hope that? No, I CAN'T hope that!!
But I did want to kiss him. I know that feeling. I wanted to kiss El. I wanted to feel someone's lips. Maybe... I didn't want to kiss El just someones lips...
I didn't understand as I mindlessly stared at Will's chest.
"Mike? Mikeeee?!" He asked.
"Huh? Oh. Hi," I gasped out. Way to go, Mike!
"Why did you say hi?" He laughed a lot, his cheeks flushing red. He giggled a little.
I laughed too. "I don't know, I wasn't paying attention to you. Sorry."
"I wasn't saying anything..." he trailed off again, like earlier.
"Oh. So..." I tried thinking of things to ask him but I just couldn't. I waited for him.
"Where you thinking? About, her?" He asked, very quietly.
"Yeah, I guess so," I said, shrugging along with my answer.
"No, I was thinking of you..." I pushed forward and leaned in..
The world below spun back into reality.
"Mike! What is wrong with you today?" He yelped, a little too loud.
I kind of jumped back, him catching me by suprise. My tummy churned and I could feel myself turn a light shade of pink-red.
He sat there, waiting for a response, almost sassily.
"You know how cute you are, sitting there sassily? Sassy Will is one of my favorite Wills..." I trailed off, leaving my couch and heading to his..."
"Mike! Just go home if you don't wanna talk to me!" He said this with a slight quiver in his voice. I looked, finally, back into his soft eyes.
This time, I could read them.