Through the Lens [BTS]

Chapter 7

It's been about a week since the Bangtan Bomb had been uploaded. Bighit took down the video and blurred Namjoon's screen before reuploading it. They also issued an official statement and sent me an email offering reimbursement. I declined since I know it was a small mistake and I don't need it. I've earned everything I have and would hate to take something I didn't earn.

The online hate has gotten better. I've gotten fewer death threats and some people are even apologizing after an interview released where Namjoon was asked about the incident and he chose to formally apologize. More people have followed my account and are commenting nice things about my photos. I've even gotten offers to be a photographer for some lesser-known fashion companies. Of course, I told them I was still in high school but that once I graduated, I would be happy to work with them.

Everything has gotten worse at school though. Erin is unrelenting and keeps sending different people to bully me. I mostly ignore them until they try to get physical with me. That's when I have to shut their shit down and kick their ass. After a week you would think she would leave me alone but she still hasn't gotten the hint. The students she sends after me usually stop following her and start respecting me after I handle them. Erin is losing popularity as fast as she lost my friendship. I've started going by Lex again because it's the name that I've been called all my life until Erin showed up and I'd like to get rid of everything that reminds me of her. I realized that after I called her out on her shit, I was becoming more like myself. I felt free and happy. Kind of like I could do anything I wanted to. 

Currently, I'm sitting in Aaron's class trying to relax. We're presenting projects today and I am terrible at speaking in front of the class so usually, Aaron lets me do it in a different room via a camera and if people have questions then Aaron lets me know so that I can answer them. Today, he's making me do it in class with Logan. I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack when he calls us up.

Everything starts out smoothly as Logan goes over the first few slides. But as I go to read over my first slide I start to stumble a little. Logan grabs my hand behind the desk and gives me a look that says "It's okay. You've got this" and I remember all of the research I did and how I could recite all of the info in my sleep. I take a deep breath and I'm no longer nervous. I nod at Logan and give the best damn presentation anyone has ever seen. 

After I finish, people are asking genuine questions because they are truly interested in what we presented. Logan lets me take the lead on the questions and I answer them as accurately as possible. When I finish answering the last question everyone claps, not just because it's polite but because they really enjoyed our presentation. I quickly sit down and go to play music. Something stops me before I can do so. A notification. From All_The_Jams.

Hey everyone!!! It's been a while but I'm back with the hurricane. College is hard but I think I have enough time for this book again. I also just started re-writing "Are You Sure?" Go check it out! Thanks for all of your support.

-Andy 👽