Ran Away

Family

As I unpacked I couldn't help but notice Jahseh's room. It was so dark, and he would just sit around with his head down as if he was hurt.
I went up to him and asked,"Are you okay? Do you need anything?"
He didn't respond but he just closed the door in my face. I was about to kirk off, because that was disrespectful, but I just mumbled under my breath "well fuck you too"
And walked to my room.
He played music with tonsssss of bass, some songs I fucked with but some I just wondered like what's wrong with him. He went from rap and rock, to sad slow songs that make you just wanna think.
I just chilled in my room forgetting that I'm the nanny but Aiden should be fine. I checked on him, he was sleep and SpongeBob was on so I carried him upstairs turned off the lights and tv, put him in his room. I went to my room turned off my lights and watched tv.
An hour later it was 8pm, I felt sleepy so i turned the tv off. I was dozing off then I heard a loud "Fuck!" Coming from Jahseh room. It sounded like he was hurt. I tried opening the door but it was locked. I asked "Are you okay, like for real? I know you don't know me and I don't know you either but I still wanna make sure you're okay."
"I'm fine leave me alone. You won't ever no me anyways." He said.
"Can I get to know you, I mean we are gonna be living together?"
"Can you just leave me alone?" He asked.
"Not until you let me get to know you."
"Fine, damn I let you get to know me but not right now!" He said
"Ok good night." I said

Next Day
They're mom still wasn't back. I texted her and asked if the boys know where you are at, she said no. She told me she it really busy with work and will be out of town for a while.
I told the boys and they just looked at each other with this 'of course' look.
I made them food, and before Jahseh could go upstairs, I call him and say,"Hey, you said if I left you alone I could get to know you."
"Fine, but before you come in my room let me change a couple of things." He said
I assumed he was hiding something but I wasn't worried about it.
I went in and like I remember it was dark. Except his walls, they were plain. It was a white kinda color. The regular color walls when you first get your house especially if it's new.
I ask him" So I know you're name Jahseh, and I see you don't talk or like to be around much. But it makes me wanna get to know you." And I wasn't lying.
"Well since you wanna know me, I'll tell you. You asked." He said
"Okay" I replied
"So the reason I'm not talking much is because I don't know you, and I don't come out my room much because there's a stranger in my house. Also I'm a fucked yo individual, I don't think you really want to know who I am." He said
"I do, I believe that every 'fucked up' individual has a reason. Just like me." I said
"What do you mean 'like me'?" He asked
"I can't necessarily say or I'll be back a square one with life or on the edge." I said
"Tell me... If you tell me I won't tell anyone else. And I'll tell you what ever you want to know as well but you can't tell no one." I promised
"Alright. Well, I ran away from home. I'm came out here to work, and to live. It was either kill myself or run away. I just hated my life, it wasn't my family it was just me, I didn't belong there. Which made me start to think that I didn't belong on earth, or alive, so I ran away before I could do anything that I can't get back."
"I'm sorry to here that. You're not the only one. I also have thoughts of suicide and self harm." He said
"Maybe we can help each other out, if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here, and vice eras." I asked.
"Sure I guess but there is no guarantee that I'll come to you." He told me
"Same but okay." I said as I left out his room.
After that talk it seemed like I felt different towards him. I never found him attractive but I started to feel warmed to him.
Maybe I like him... nahhhh
I slid my number under his door, when I thought he was sleep but he wasn't so I ran to my room before he could open his door.
He texted me.
###-###-#### - Solana?
Me - Yea, is this Jahseh?
###-###-#### - Yea, why did you give me my number.
Me - I wanted you to have it. Plus I'm not gonna come to you every time I feel something but I'll always have me phone.
Jahseh⚠️- Oh, since I'm already texting you, are you okay. Bc u said if u we're feeling a type of way that you would text me.
Me-Yea I'm fine ig. But,
Jahseh - But what.